*Smiles*

I have friends, and I love them. Even if we have our issues and problems come between us, we don't stop being friends. :)

*I just have to tell the world that, I live and I have all the wonderful people around me.

-S.Reyes

Keep Moving On

Since Mom died, my brother and sisters tried their best to make me feel that I still have mom with me through them. I'm still adjusting and it's really hard for the whole family to move on. Even though sometimes I think our family is falling apart...somehow I know that everything would fall back into place again.

I'm still having a hard time coping up with my new life after mom's death.Well, it's really difficult; knowing that some things you did before couldn't be repeated anymore. I avoid telling happy moments I had with my family; it hurts to remember...and it hurts to try to tell. Things are not the same anymore, and feelings come with change too. I'm doing pretty fine right now, happy with my life and still stuck in the "moving-on" process. The healing hurts as time progresses. I'm already used to telling "used to's" in life. People are waiting for me to face life with "that SMILE" they really loved before. So people, you'd be waiting for more years to come to see me smile "that SMILE" again. Everyone around me changed already; but one thing remained constant---our love for Mommy.

For all those who've stuck on me: Ate Lilia, Kuya Tony, Ate Rosette, Daddy, and the rest of the family, I love you all and let's keep moving on :)

-S.Reyes

First and Last

I promised myself that I would try my best to keep this blog going. Well, I already have 2 successful years for making this blog alive. I hope I'd be blessed for another year, or several years to go keeping this blog going. A week to go, and it's already start of classes. I failed to post a lot this summer because of my very busy schedule. Whenever I try to write this summer, nothing comes out in my head. It's either I'm too relaxed to write or too stressed to write. I'm having irregular sleeping habits and I'm having a hard time to get my butt out of the bed. I'm troubled by laziness. It seems like I don't want to think for awhile. But I couldn't stop my thoughts to burst out of my head whenever I forced myself to sleep, and kiss consciousness goodbye. This story is all about the last thoughts I remembered last night (June 10,2010) before I crossed the threshold of slumber.

Ikee and I were chatting last night, and we somehow talked about our batchmates way back in highschool. We talked about the controversial people back then and some memories that triggered ultimate laughter. We also talked about projects in the past that looks stupid right now. Well, I remembered a friend. Daniel is the name. In Freshmen year, our very FIRST subject in T.H.E was making the "Paper Fan". We were paired and we did a good job making the project. We designed it to be "disco" inspired; But our teacher wasn't a huge fan of night life and disco so she gave us an awful grade of 90. When we reached Senior year, Daniel and I were paired for the LAST time, for our LAST fourth year requirement, "The Term Paper". We did a good teamwork and partnership working on the paper. The topic was all about Sleep Disorders and Disturbances (supporting my reason why I wrote this blog/ I was sleep-disturbed). Gaaaah!Guess what? we got a 90 for that paper :) You get the pattern?

*If you want to download our term paper, Somnipathy: A study of sleep disorders, it's available on my 4shared account :)) Follow arcSAMfrost @ Twitter (dot) com for more details.

-S.Reyes

The Greatest Downfall

Let's talk about love's DOWNFALL---Jealousy. It imprisons every relationship; If you don't want your relationship to die, you must get out of it very fast. It brings you intense feelings of resentment that triggers and ignites anger. It burns a hole in your heart, and it's always too late to save yourself from the ignition. This feeling that comes from love can so easily destroy it. Actually, it's that you see a person as your rival; the real rival regarding jealousy is yourself. Victims of Jealousy are usually threaten by rivals that they thought are taking away what is rightfully theirs. Jealousy is really a painful emotion; you can't escape from being hurt at any ways. This feeling is too difficult to dislodge, and we must be very careful. It's really hard to be jealous, it brings instability in your life. Some are just insecure of others that's why they tend to be jealous. But the more jealous you get, the more you destabilize yourself. It is right to control jealousy within yourself, that will be very hard but still, you have to take a risk and TRY. Some says that when you're jealous, you just care for the one you love...It is true, but the more you love and be possessive, you become unlovable. Relationships couldn't survive without doubts, and in doubts jealousy feeds. Sometimes, we just have to take a pause to reconfigure ourselves before jealousy eats us all up. The more you get involve in this feeling of selfishness, the more weak you'd be. Many think that the more you can control you loved one, the more powerful you'll be--is not true; But the more you become powerless and devoured by selfishness---Enough power to save yourself and the other live free. Jealousy enables you to move on and think the same thing over again. The same obsession, the same delusions, and the same uncertainty. Looking at the good side of Jealousy, it's an expression of caring. It makes you aware about how much love would you invest in a relationship, to guide your heart. THINK. If jealousy's playing with your heart, you gotta PLAY like a PRO and be smart.

"People can handle disappointment without feeling like a total loser. The only way to eliminate the pain of loss is to eliminate value, and you can't do that because then life would not be worth living." -Psychology Today

Don't live IN Jealousy; Live ALONGSIDE Jealousy.

-S.Reyes

THINK. CALM DOWN, CALM DOWN.

*the picture was taken by yours truly, Sam Reyes