The Reason Why...

Why do I write? To me writing has always been a form of relaxation. It gives me the opportunity to put my thoughts in a logical order to see where 'm at , in my life. Writing calms the storm of thoughts that fill my mind every waking moment of everyday. I write because there are times I need to say something, and I have no one to talk to (bored). I leapfrogged this, so please read the whole thing. Well, writing is a silent way of expressing yourself as much as you want to, whether it is in creating, or just to air your feelings.

"Being an amateur is learning, and being a perfectionist is in knowing the right way to do things," (RDAsia). A professional--that's something I will never come close to being. I, however, do have a great time writing journal reflections. I sometimes have a problem with some of the titles I want to write. I see no humor in a lot of topics nowadays (poverty, corruption, etc.). Some things in life will never be funny when someone is being hurt.

I got pressured in writing this year. I wanted to quit, but I'm not a quitter. I just have some things to learn, and I didn't learn quickly enough. I just wish they had given me a chance to fix what was wrong, and so they did. I still have a lot to learn as you all know, and CdSP was where I learned to do it. I need to write. I need to feel like I'm communicating with someone, whether anyone ever reads them or not. I know that writing is a way to get to know myself, as well.

As a grade school student, I never liked to write. Writing was boring, a lot of work, and something that just wasn't interesting to me. I've always been scared to death of getting up and reading something I wrote to the class for fear that my peers may think my ideas were stupid. She (Miziz) must have known that she had the chance tp make me learn to be a creative writer and that I could use my talent for humor in a less disruptive manner than I was accustomed to. I find that when my writing makes others smile, it is most rewarding for me, and that is why I choose to write and do blog posts today.

*Thanks to Miziz and Miziz M, for encouraging to write more in the future.

*I got what I wanted in our graduation and thankful for the people who helped me.

Love.Read.Write.

-S.Reyes

Same Reasons--Separate Ways

We've shared much laughter and even precious tears. The memories we have warmed all my years. You have a certain way to make my troubles sometime disappear. It's hard to admit that my life is richer every moment you are here. Now, it's time for us to go our separate ways. Although we'll be apart, the love will always stay. Thank you dear for seeing the best in me, as I see the best in you. You're everything I'm not and all a friend should be. As we go our separate ways, We won't blame each other, knowing that it is nobody's fault that we didn't see things the same way...And, as we go our separate ways to start a new life--We will remember that we have different needs...Needs that the other one cannot fulfill...It's not that we're leaving behind the good times we shared together--instead, we're taking them with us...I won't say good-bye to you...i will simply say so long. This post is a reminder that great things begin and end with LOVE.

*You know who you are.

*Magparamdam ka kasi, because I'm friggin' missing you.

-S.Reyes

Let Go, Move On. (this post--a secret)

When love finds us there is no way to escape it. This is a story about a teenage boy and teenage girl whose love ended in a way that they never expected it.

TEXT MESSAGES: (translated in English / not the exact messages but almost)

B: I will always care about you no matter the fact that we don't talk.

B You left a big space too big to anyone to replace...I hope you understand.

G: It hurts me to know it's over now.

B:There's no one like you and I'm tired of searching for her because I always go back and think of you.

G: Be happy now and love someone else, I'm happy for you because you deserve to be loved by someone better.

B: You helped me grow and I am, the way I am because of you, sometimes I may not like it but this is who I am.

B: Thank you for helping me make myself better, wiser, and a stronger person.

B: No matter where you are or who you’re with, always know you have a friend still standing for you.

G: I donn't relly want to let you go but inside me I know I must.

B: I'll pray for you always, and as I promised, I'll study harder.

G: We have shared so much together; laughter...fun times...tears.

B: You changed me, in a positive way. 

G: I know one day you will be happy and you will find a better girl.

G: You will realize thing were better this way.



To "let go" doesn't mean to stop caring. This post is not to fix, but to be supportive. Not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but allow others to move on. This is not to be protective but to permit the persons to face reality. This post is not to regret the past but to grow and live for the future. 

This post was written for a friend of mine who was trying to decide what to do with a relationship with someone she loves/loved. Yet the relationship did not seem to be the best one for him, or in the long run for either of them. But how do you turn and walk away when a portion of your heart is longing to stay? That is a question and definitely not an easy one to answer. Only you can decide.

*Fear less and love more, my dear; I'm here, and will always be.

-S.Reyes

Cleaning Marathon

So, wala na talaga ako magawa sa buhay. This summer is so boring and made me more excited to be in College. Three days na rin akong may sakit, suffering from Acute-upper respiratory tract infection (sipon). Ang sakit talaga ng ulo ko...actually lalong naging abnormal ang sleeping habit ko dahil sa aking sakit. Daytime sleepiness...tapos widely awake ako sa nighttime. Ala nakong makatext pag gabi o kaya madaling araw kasi bagong buhay na si Michelle. Nakakamiss actually. Ala ngang kinalaman ang aking introduction sa topic nitong post na to. Gusto ko lang naman i-share ang aking nararamdaman at humanap ng karamay sa sipon na I'm trying to endure. Ang gusto ko lang naman ipahiwatig ay: Sinulat ko tong post na to na may sakit ako. Ayan nasabi ko na, medyo gumaaan na rin ang aking pakiramdam. Mahirap gumawa ng blog pag may sakit, hindi ka makapag-isip ng mabuti at napapagod ka pa sa kakahintay kung kelan ka sisinghot. Asar Talaga.

Well, matagal na itong "cleaning Marathon" nangyari. Napanaginipan ko lang ito kagabi/kaninang umaga. Miss ko na rin ang bida sa blog na ito, si Mela. Lalo na yung walang kamatayan nyang pag-reremind na matulog ako ng maaga at huwag na mag-blog. Umpisahan na natin ang istorya. Naging half na ng buong post ang introduction, pambihira.

So, friday ito nangyari...I can hardly remember the details. Basta friday. Kasi nga Friday cleaner si Mela. Early dismissal noon, pinaiwan ni Sir Spencer ang mga officers for some reminders and chuva. Si Mela ay hindi pa nakakauwi, as well as Ikee. Ayan, kinausap kami ni Sir spencer about sa attendance at class funds namin. wala namang mxado naging problema sa class funds, nagkaron nga lang ng konting conflict sa Attendance namin. Panu kasi walang kwenta talaga yung secretary namin. Puro pagpupuyat at pag-gawa ng blogs ang inaatupag. Napaka negligent. Ang bitter ko na sa sarili ko. Tumakas na ang ibang Friday cleaners kasi, hallush, tinatamad na silang mag-linis at ang bukod tanging naiwan ay wala ng iba kundi si Mela Melz.

Masipag syang tao kaya nag-linis siya kahit mag-isa. Nag-volunteer akong tumulong at ginaya naman ako ni Ikee. Wala kasi syang magawa dahil ala pa ang sundo nya. Sabay kami ni Ikee tumaas. Natuwa ako sa tiyan nya kaya sinuntok ko. haha. Aba! tinulak ba naman ako ng napaka lakas. ang ganti ko naman ay isang blow ulit sa tiyan, loko, tumalbog kamay ko. hahaha. Tapos, ginawa nya din yun sakinuntil makarating na kami sa 4th floor. Tinigilan ko na nga siyang harutin kasi baka iwan nya ako. Ang pambihirang Ikee ay hinablot ba naman ang kamay ko at tinulak ako sa wall at tumakbo sa room. Hindi naman ako nakikipag unahan sa kanya. Nakakainis talaga. Ang harot , grabeh. Naglinis na kami habang naglalaro ng taguan ang mga third year.

Tahimik na rin at less harutan. Nagbuhat si Ikee ng napaka daming chairs na patung-patong...grabeh, macho. hahaha. dahil sadyang mabait ako, tinulungan ko siya. WAAA! umalis sya at ako lang ang pinagbuhat. Ayun, nag-wawalis si Mela habang pinahihirapan ako ni Ikee. Naisip kong gumanti kaya kinurot ko tiyan niya habang may inaabot siyang upuan. Nagulat sa at nabagsak yung monobloc sa ulo ko! . huhuhu, ang sakit talaga. Nag sorry naman siya at lalo akong sinisi. Akala ko kasi malakas ang endurance ng tiyan nya, di ko akalain na mangyayari yun. sakit talaga. Maya-maya lang, tahimik na ang paligid. Nag-linis na kami ng maayos.

Tapos, sinuntok ni Ikee ang tiyan ko na tumakbo paalis. hinabol ko si Ikee, may gusto kasi akong sabihin sa kanya. HIndi ko nasabi ang gusto kong sabihin kasi nawalan ako ng pagkakataon sabihin ang nararapat kong sabihin. Nag-takbuhan kami pababa...Naku, nakalimutan ko na iniwan na namin si Mela...Naabutan ko si Ikee sa may staircase na malapit sa faculty. Napaupo kami sandali at nag-decide na kaming umuwi. An sama namin. Naiwan si Mela sa itaas. Naku po.

*sorry kay Mela, dahil iniwan namin siya ni Ikee.

*Huwag kayong mangurot ng tiyan ng iba.

*Matakot sa dilaw na monobloc.

*HUwag tumakbo at taksan ang kaklase na nag-lilinis...magkakasakit at gagawa ng ganitong blog pag hindi ka tumulong mag-walis.

-S.Reyes

HOT N' COLD (3-26-09) Embassy @ School

Well, eto na yung last Feastday namin. At first, akala ko it would be a whack...kasi i had a hunch na makakalimutan yung mga naka-assign na dadalin ng aking mga classmate. We always failed to meet deadlines and responsibilities on our previous years but this day reaally suprised me. Whoa! grabeh...as in lahat ay nakapag-dala ng nkaka-assign sa kanila. Impressive talaga, alang nakalimutan. I really thought our plan would be a mess but it turned out to be a great one--the greatest! So, we got the food, settings, music (loud ones), everything...PERFECT.

Since we don't have games like the others years, Sir Spencer served us some chips (from Charmaine) and gave us a cheezy dip sponsored by Ikee. Ayan, kanya kanyang tabale na kami at kinain na namin yun chips. Apetizer lang sya pero mukhang nabusog kami ng bonggang bongga! Thanks talaga kay Paulo kasi nag-dala sya ng sounds para sa aming last class party. Well, dinig nga ng buong school and sounds namin weh. Napaka lakas ng volume...what's worse? HipHop pa ang music! waaa. Head-banging talaga! pero honestly, mapapasayaw ka kahit na masukal sa loob mo. Pumunta ako sa ground to check kung gaano kalakas yung sounds namin...kasi I'd been hearing some complains from the other year levels...Lin***! ang lakas talaga. You could hear the songs clearly. Lalo na kaya at nasa room kami, napaka lakas tapos sign language na lang ang communication namin.

So, after kumain nung chips as in totally wala na kaming magawa. Ang boring, buti nalang talaga at may sounds kami kung hindi, totally dead ang aura sa room. Lumabas sila Paul. Oo, lumabas nga sila...at hindi ko alam ang rason kung bakit dahil nasa ibaba ako di ba? hindi nga ba? oha?
Aba! pag-akyat ko, may biglang yumayanig sa labas ng classroom! Humataw na si Paul, sinamahan pa ni Abi! san ka pa? sinama pa ang buong barkada tapos sumunod na ang mga kapamilya...

Nag-sasayawan ang mga loka loka ng kung anu-anong steps. Sige, kanya-kanya silang patalbugan, pambihira talaga nang biglang...Kumanta si Feedez Perry. Ay mali! si Katy Perry pala...hahaha! Hot n' cold ang tinira...sumayaw si Katya ng steps ng GSP nung siklaban, gumaya si Jassiel...nagustuhan ni Paul! nainggit si Xtine, pati si Mela, Si maine at Eve humataw na rin, hindi nagpahuli si Abi, lumundag pa si Phen, sumali pa si ikee! papahuli ba ko? xempre umepal man ako!!!! wahahaha. Take note: Video Recorded pa yan! kunin nyo na lang kay gilian o kaya kay abi kung gusto nyo. AKala mo nakalimutan ko? hindi! HIndi talaga kumpleto pag-hindi nagpakitang gilas si Janina sa Pag-sayaw isama mo pa si Ivan at Daniel. wahahaha

Xempre, umiinit ang labanan...kaya inalam na rin nung iba ang steps until alam na namin lahat. Ilang beses namin inulit ulit ang kanta pati na rin ang pag-sayaw until mastered na mastered na!
ayun,napagod kami ng husto! suamkit pa tiyan namin...pagkatapos ng pangyayari na yaon, inupakan namin ang pizza at carbonara na galing kay Mela. Ang saya saya talga. Kumain na kami ng lunch after ng ilang chizmisan. pagkatapos ng lunch, picture time naman...maiyak pa si feedez. THen, bored na ulit kami. Inaya ko si EJ na maglakad-lakad para bumaba ang aming nakain/nalamon. hahaha. Dumaan kamini Ikee at Ej sa First year upang makahingi ng kaunting ice cream. Binigyan naman kami at umalis na kami agad kasi narinig namin ang Hot n' cold. Nag-sayaw pa nga ako habang kumakain ng ice cream weh (tingnan mo yung picture).

Hala! sumayaw naman kami at nag-project pa! alam na rin ata ng ibang year ang aming disco club sa labas ng room. Nakakahiya man isipin pero, wala kaming pakialam. hahaha Naputol na ang aming kasiyahan ng ibaba na ang videoke player, sayang naman.

*Alam ko na inggit na kayo, ala namang pumipigil sayo...alam kong gusto mo...
HALIKA! MAG-SAYAW TAYO!

*Hot N' Cold--out in all Odyssey outlets nationwide. Please grab a copy.

-S.Reyes