Lies

I thought I didn't care;

But it turned out that I care too

much, that I didn't even notice I was

already hurt.

I expected nothing, and I realized I

expected everyone to give me

everything.

I tried to believe the perjured

truth---

to escape the melancholic holler

of sorrow in reality.

I fiddled with happiness and

hoaxed my state of mind.

I played with the swindled

personality of my combined

conscience and ego.

I gave up and liberated my chained

feelings;

I freed myself from the shackles of

mendacity and lived in TRUTH.

-S.Reyes

You're little girl's a Lady

Mom, your little girl's A LADY.

But your little girl's love didn't change...for she loves you as ALWAYS.

She MAKES her bad habits go away.

She tries to make HER daddy happy.

She misses her MOMMY so dearly.

She wants you to be PROUD of her, for she is so proud of you.

*combine all the capitalized words to reveal the secret message.

-S.Reyes

UNTITLED

"I miss mom..."

">:D<"

"Secret lang na I'm capable of being sad ah..."

"...we all have that side. It's natural to feel that way. Don't worry, you'll feel better in no time."

"I chose to be neutral. It scares me to feel sad..."

"It's okay, I understand. It's really difficult especially in your case. But knowing you, you're going to keep strong. But remember, it's okay to let out your feelings. It will do you good. Remember that your surrounded by people who love, care and understand you. Don't be afraid to be true to yourself."

"I'm afraid people would just go away and die. Promise me you would stay?"

"Don't worry I'm not going anywhere :D"

"I know, I trust you."

-S.Reyes

Accused

I felt accused.

On the way you looked at me, made me feel I lost myself and I was NOBODY.

On the way you cried made everybody looked at me like a criminal.

I said sorry, for I would like to take your blame and surrender.

Thank you for giving me a sin I never did---

an accusation that I accepted for you to FORGIVE.

-S.Reyes

Put your hands in the Fayer

Faye, you must be wondering why this picture taken in a transportation in Corrigidor was used in this blog post. It's always like a long ride with you. I never get tired sitting in the same place with you by my side. There's always a new adventure and no end to each route. A journey with you is like waiting for every chapter to unfold...mystery and thrill are always there. I don't care where you might take me, but I believe we're always on the right track. Thank you Faye Rayos, Happy Birthday! :D

btw, yung picture na yan ay hindi STOLEN! oha, nag-peace sign pa ako. :)) Tapos, favorite ko to sa pictures nating dalawa. Ito yung pang 3 out of 6 pictures natin kahit 1 year and a half year na tayong magkakilala. =))

-cupcake :3

Back in Photography

I was just using my canon digital camera in taking pictures before. My pictures were off average quality, but it has its own greatness in someways (it's not that bad to love your own). My family said that I have potentials in photography; the problem is, I just don't like it that much. So, let's take it to the next level! I just got my very own Nikon D-slr for my incoming debut in September 17, 2010 (don't forget to greet me, LOL). It's Daddy's gift. Since I already have the camera, why not acquire the inspiration back in photography??? Well, I think it's time for me to give up my Soccer frustrations be busy with my new hell-of-a-frustration: Photography. *big grin* Be sure to always check and follow my deviantart account for my photos. Check it out at : http://sam917.deviantart.com/ Now, I'll be busy finding photography classes so I could get it scheduled in my Sembreak or in summer vacation. Join me, all together now... *cheers!* :D -S.Reyes

Faith Strengthens Intelligence

Have you seen the pictures? Have you seen the pretty people with me? Those people are my INSPIRATION. They could make me travel back and forth from City to Province just be with them. They are ones who could take me out of reality even for awhile. They are the ones who could make me smile everytime. They proved that friendship never fades with time and age. It's a strong bond that could only be broken if the ones who made it decided to break it.

Every September 8, I am bound to go to Bulacan to celebrate the Blessed Mother's birthday; celebrate it with my CdSP family. Last year (2009), I was so motivated to go to the event and ready to cut classes and break some rules just to go there. This year (2010), my enthusiasm decreased since I thought there would be classes and quizzes the next day. I knew that Mama Mary would help me, and guess what...she did. Our classes were cut half-day so I could be able to go to Bulacan for the party. I know that my faith isn't the same as of before. The world is eating me and studies are slowly consuming my conscience. And so my motivation to go decreased, for I fear the world too much. I had a quiz the next day and I decided to study it when I get back to Manila after the party (too risky). I believed that if decided not to go, I will be able to study well and not be extremely exhausted for the following day. But because of my beloved batchmates, they gave me reason to go and made me believe that *"FAITH STRENGTHENS INTELLIGENCE." What if I decided to study? Would that be enough to save me from the gallows of 2nd year College? Well, NO. Of course, it takes FAITH much more than most. Now, I'm beginning to believe that I wouldn't be losing my religion *laughs*. I almost forgot that my faith is fortified by Philomenian values, it's not that fragile. Believe me. The sacrifice was all worth it, or as I think it was. It feels good to have the people you long held close be by your side once again. It feels great to sacrifice. I feels great to take chances, and wait for the results...believing EVERYTHING is worth every WAIT.

I love you guys! You know who you are...Thank you for inspiring me and saving me from the world!

* this is what I wrote in my text to Janina confirming that I would go to the September 8 event.

-S.Reyes

I want to be SUPERMAN

I want to be like SUPERMAN;. Not because of his amazing abilities and strength. Superman or Kal-el was sent into Earth as the last of his kind. He was destined to rule the Earth, together with people identified as "flawed race." He chose to be different. Instead of conquering the world, he let the world conquer him and chained him into service. He broke his fate, and started a different destiny. He destroyed the chapters in his past so he could write a new future. He believed in his enemy (Lex Luthor),and trusted the distorted loyalty of humans. He opened his steel heart to humans; allowed it to be melted by love; permitted it to be broken.

I want to be like SUPERMAN...SUPER in every way. Let your self FLY to your dreams and be like SUPERMAN!

-S.Reyes

Lies

I thought I didn't care;
But it turned out that I care too much, that I don't even notice I'm already hurt.
I expect nothing, and I realized I expect him to give me everything.
I tried to believe the perjured truth---
to escape the melancholic holler of sorrow in reality.
I fiddled with happiness and hoaxed my state of mind.
I played with the swindled personality of my combined conscience and ego.
I gave up and liberated my chained feelings;
I freed myself from the shackles of mendacity and lived in TRUTH.

-S.Reyes

Hand behind the Pen

I write, gifted with the intellect in my hand.
Every thought from my brain is passed down to the heart of my hand.
Every nerve ending in my hand has the ability to express the words I could never say.
All the pressure, all the attachment, all the anxiety and bitterness I feel;
My hand says it all out loud with its pen, when my heart is silenced.

-S.Reyes

Heartbreak Harmony

You took away the pieces of my melody.
You left a broken song, and in my heart a misery.
You destroyed the notes of my emotion.
You made a chorus of pain and agony.
You changed the rhythm of my feelings.
Thank you for inspiring me to make a heartbreak harmony.

-S.Reyes

The Pianoman

My hand sings every note in your music sheet.
My hands play every melody in your heart.
Every press in the piano keys;
A heart sings wholeheartedly.

-S.Reyes

After You

My heart withered;
My emotions died together with you.
I turned cold and lost a SMILE.
I got lost and let happiness die inside me.

-S.Reyes

Find a Way

Life is like being lost, apparently. The more you struggle, the more confused you get about the path to take.The more effort you exert to find the right way, the more lost you get. You shouldn't look for the right direction; go where your faith takes you. Right directions are not always correct. Sometimes, you have to gamble your hopes and take chances to get the best path.Don't look forward on getting to the finish line or in the end of each road of stuggle. Look at finding a way coming back from the start. But if you really think that you're lost...all you can do is wait for someone to come get you. The people who care about you...will always be there to come and get you . You have to believe that; You have to believe them.

-S.Reyes