Monster Kitty Cat!

Dahil ako lagi ang late matulog sa unit namin, ako lagi ang nakakasaksi sa kagimbal-gimbal na krimen ng Monster Kitty Cat! Gabi-gabi umaatake ang Monster Kitty cat sa katabi naming unit. Laging parang na-rape ang basurahan ng katabi naming unit. Pagbukas namin sa aming pintuan sa umaga, nagkalat ang mga tirang pagkain at basura; nakatumba ang basurahan, at nakabukod na ang helmet nito sa katawan. 


TAKOT PA NAMAN AKO SA PUSA! Nakakainis lang yung seryoso kang nagbabasa ng mga aralin kaso, biglang may hihiyaw na pusa na parang WORLD WAR 2 ang dating. 


May isang gabi, lumabas ako para magtapon ng scratch paper. Mga 3:00 a.m. na pero hindi pa rin ako tapos mag-aral para sa final exams namin. Dahan-dahan akong sumilip pagkabukas ng pinto...walang bakas ng Monster Kitty Cat sa paligid. Nung lumabas na ako para itapon ang basura...biglang nasa loob ng basurahan yung pusa!!! tapos nagkatitigan pa kami!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
Hindi talaga ako makahinga!!! bigla ako pumasok ulit sa unit at nag-touchdown sa aking kama dahil sa takot. Mas na-stress pa ako sa aking Monster Kitty Cat experience kaysa sa aking pinag-aaralan (o_O)

Moving on from the fixation...

Sometimes, we would experience a sort of emotional fatigue. Well, I did. The past few months before 3rd year ended, were tough. STRESS.DECISIONS.REJECTION.LIES...emotional SURRENDER. And now, I'm still bothered about the events that happened...the floating worry and lost care still haunt. I moved on from the terrible events (what happened, already happened...I couldn't do anything about it), but my mind is still confused...my emotions--perplexed, fixated. 


But do I still have to worry about what happened, when I know there's so much to look forward to?


What I've learned:


1. If you got rejected, it doesn't mean that you're not good enough. Maybe you're in for something much more than great. 


2. If you decided to let go of someone, it doesn't mean that you'd stop caring. Maybe you just need an ample of space to know how much strength you'd need to be able to hold on once again.


3. If you get so tired, it doesn't mean you're weak.


4. If you lied, it doesn't mean your incapable of genuine respect. Maybe you're just scared to inflict damage.


5. If you think everything's falling apart, it doesn't mean that you can't put the pieces back together. Sometimes, our hopes deteriorate so we can reconstruct our thoughts...and build greater dreams. 

Destined to bloom again

My favorite perennial that grew from an exquisite seed,

With an imperfect supply of warm weather and water;

I always knew you could still grow.

As you strive to push yourself up the ground,

And even nurture thorns for protection;

I always knew you could struggle the altering seasons.

You have been a delicate bud shielded by intricate sepals for a long time

-- a reluctant flower not yet ready to bloom.

I always knew you’d blossom.

When you decided not to confront the demands of time,

And let yourself wither for naught;

I always knew you could still thrive for living.

When you thought you ought to surrender your scent to the world,

And when you thought you were ready to let your petals fall off;

I always knew you could still make yourself intact.

Never forget to remember that you’re a special flower;

You can bloom over spring and summer...

Die out when winter comes.

Don’t worry, spring will return...

You always have an opportunity to renew yourself,

And bloom once again.

For a friend I'll surely miss...see you SOON. Please be fine :)