Golden Apple

Finally, I got the chance to visit Ninang after all the failed meetings we set. Mang Carlos drove me to CdSP like what it was in high school. I saw the same people, some are new. I entered the gate by the help of Mang Roger. I waited very long before Ninang came down. I looked around the familiar surroundings where I couldn't believe that I wasn't there for a long time. Physically, there are a lot of changes in my old school, but I still get the warm welcome like what I always had before. The people were the same, treated me the same--not a stranger for a visit. I miss looking around, sitting as the December breeze drew against my face.Ninang arrived, and we seated in front of the Grade 2 room. I was with another guest, a friend of Ms. Santos. I couldn't imagine I could really relate to adult's conversations. I felt a little matured joining the talk. I actually informed them a lot, like I was really an adult. :)) grabeh! We talked about the current events and ofcourse, we talked about "me". Ms. Santos pressured the cooks to hurry our food. She said I was onlt there for the food. Ninya didn't show up because she was still in her pajamas...sleeping. Claire greeted me and asked how I was doing since I left the school. It was too shocking for her to ask such question, knowing that she's only five...and in kinder. She asked where Michelle is, and she told me that I should've brought her with me. Ms. Santos blamed me for not bringing Ms. Amanda Gonzales with me, she told me to keep her safe and extend her holiday greeting to her family. Going back to the conversation, we also talked about the changes regarding my batch mates...how are they doing, and who are they now. Ms. Santos mentioned about achievements, and I couldn't really share a lot about that since I don't have much of it.

She told me to do well on my studies and be a doctor as she remembered that I almost promised that to everyone in the town. Tita Rosie saw me, interviewed me about college, the comparisons, I couldn't imagine how I was back there in the school and how culture shocked I was in Manila. She hugged me and went to the kitchen to assist on the most awaited food. Ninang will go to SM Pampanga so I just stayed until after lunch. I dined with Mami Lola, Ninang Mz, the other guest. We ate Pancit fresh from Tuguegarao city, :)) that's how they call it. Plus, Ninang Mz made me a cheese sandwich and forced me too eat it. After I finished a plate of the pancit, she gave me another round of the pancit. I really ate A LOT, against my will. :)) I love ninang for always making me force to eat. I miss that, so much.

Ninag said, "nagbibigay ka pa ng regalo, eh ako ang may trabaho!" <--sobrang speechless ako. :)) Well, she gave me her gift...3 golden apples (very rare) and an envelope with CASH $$$ inside. woot! :)) meron nako pamasahe pauwi :)) She also said that, " mahirap ng magkamali ng regalo, ikaw nalang bumili ng gusto mo".I noticed the donation boxes where still there together with the excess Christmas Fundrive. I remebered that I was responsible for that Last School year, an project of the student council to help kids and make their Holidays happy. So much for the drama, I realized that they still continued what I started before. Really, thanks for them...the new SC's will help a lot.

Ms. Santos said that she's touched with what I said last night and she understood why I couldn't come to the reunion last night. She also asked when we could have a Alumni Homecoming. I said that our batch isn't that close unlike the other batches. Despite my negative response, she said that we are always welcome in CdSP. She warned me about using paputok as we talked "pasabog" in politics. I shared that last year, I got an accident with roman candles. The blow went out the other side towards me not in the usual pointing direction. Pabaliktad, then napaso ako. Not a major disaster, no damage skin, I just felt HOT, hotter than the usual me. :))

Before I left the school together with the people I love, i hugged and kissed Ninang Mz and hope to see her again soon. I may lost inspirations throughout the year...Now, I found another that I wouldn't lose. :)

As John Gay said, "We only part to meet again"

you people should start reading english dramas and poetry. Try reading John
Gay's, very inspiring :)

*Golden apples are the symbol for CHAOS in Greek Myth. Let's learn from chaos,
and refrain for having our own disasters ;)

*this is worth millions, it's my year ender post. This is how I started this year, and
this is how will I face TOMORROW. Happy New Year Everyone! :)

-S.Reyes

Paskuhan 2009 (FIRST)

I never knew that I'd be having a different Paskuhan from the original plan celebrating it. Sobrang ibang-iba. Maki, Jr, Faye, anf I were planning our 'porma' and everything in our first ever UST Paskuhan. So, most-awaited talaga itong event before our Christmas Break. In the morning, we had our Christmas Party with the whole class (p5). Nung una, super konti palang ang tao kahit nagpa-late na nga ako. Noong dumami na, we had our salu-salo. Syempre, inaabangan ko talaga yan. Actually, nag-mukhang feeding program. Busog kami sa pizza at Pancit. Ginahaman ko na ata lahat! ang takaw ko talaga. Isa pa ako sa una na kumuha ng pagkarami-raming pizza. SI Mikka naman yung sauce ang pinatulan! bumuga tuloy ng apoy. Meron din kaming games, halatang hindi planado and at random lang talaga. Pero masaya! Una, 'bring me' tapos binabato at binabalibag lang yung mga requested items. Nanalo ako ng isang beses...sapatos daw na walang lace...kaya binato ko sa harapan yung akin. Sobrang nahihiya ako sa aking pinaggagawa. Nanalo ako ng amazing prize na mentos candy. Pinamigay ko ang kalahati kay issachu. :))


After nun, naglaro naman kami ng 'the boat is sinking'. Syempre, pinili ko na ang mga kakampi ko at meron ng pormal na kontrata. Partners kami ni issa poreber!!! :)) pero talo naman kami. At least, umabot kami sa mga critical na rounds. Sobrang benta talaga, kapit-bisig-hawak-kamay pa kami! talagang walang tatalo. Si Maki ay walang solid na kinakampihan. Pagmatatalo na ang isang grupo, iiwanan nya at makikihalo sa iba. Ang unang-una niyang nilaglag ay si Mikka (kawawa naman) walang siyang kaalam-alam na iiwanan sya ni Maki sa oras ng kagipitan. Patuloy pa rin ang laro at dumadami na ang mga pinagtataksilan ni Maki. Napaka-walanghiya talaga, pero nakakatawa. Naubos ang boses ko, malat tuloy ako pagdating ng gabi. Wala ring sense ang paghihirap at paglalaglag ni Maki kasi natalo naman siya nila Donitz. Natalo kami ni Issa kasi iniwanan man kami ni Maki!!! Mainam sana ang team building namin kaso nagkulang na talaga ang pwersa. Sayang! galing pa naman namin ni Issachu.


After noon, gutom na ulit ako. :)) meron kaming nilaro na si Koko yung nag-fascilitate. Nung una, hindi ko magets yung game...pero ok naman. Nagbigayan na rin kami ng gifts para matapos na. Buti nalang at si Jerina ang nakabunot sakin! gusto ko talaga yung bigay nya at buti nalang at alam nya talaga ang gusto ko! woot! palakpakan! Nahihiya man ako magbigay ng regalo sa mga piling tao...kasi shy type ako. maninwala ka. :))

Umuwi na ako sa Pacific, natulog ako...pero FAIL. Gumala kami ni Janina!!! Nag-aya syang maglaro sa net kaya sumama ako. Para kaming baliw sa computer shop kasi kami lang ang maingay at tumatawa mag-isa. Ang plano namin nila Maki ay pumunta ng maaga sa UST for Paskuhan and dinner. Pero hindi yun nasunod kasi nag-parlor pa si Faye (ang kyoooooot!!!). Doon na nagsimula ang pagbabago.

NAg-text na si Ikee sakin, magkikita kami sa UST. Doon muna ako sa mga blockmates ko...tapos sinundo ko sya sa Main building. Sasama raw muna sya sakin PANSAMANTALA but naging FOREVER. Umupo kami dun sa bato...unusual talaga at nagkkwento sya at kinakausap nya ako. Then inuulit nya lagi, 'nakakahiya naman sa blockmates mo', tapos puro 'shattap' ang sagot ko.Sobrang nagkkwento at kinakausap nya talaga ako...but i always looked around when she did that...puro tuloy bira at palo nakuha ko! berry naiz! Pero hindi pa ako badtrip nyan...mamaya pa. Binili nya ako nung glow in the dark bangles...pero yung 5pesos dun sa nagastos nya ay sakin galing. Noon ko rin na-realize na wala akong dalang wallet! lintsak!!! Buti nalang at ayos lang daw na samahan nya ako kunin. Maling wallet ang nadala ni Janina, pero ayos lang kasi ang bait nya sakin. Nakipagsiksikan kami pauwi ng Dapitan.

Wala rin pala akong dalang susi kaya hiniram ko pa yung kay Janina (life saver talaga!). Hindi ko nakita si Janina nung paalis na kami kaya pinabigay ko nalang sa kaklase nya na si 'Billy Cells'. Mabilis kaming nakabalik sa UST. At nag-aya si Potian sa Shakey's para i-treat kami kasi b-day nya nga pala. Sinabi ko kila Faye na hindi nako makakasama dahil kay Ikee. HIndi naman kasi pwedeng iwan si ikee at magpakasaya ako. So, pinili ko nalang na samahan si Ikee. Actually, sinasama pa nga nila si Ikee pero nahihiya na talaga ako kasi ang bait nila. Sabi ko kay Ikee, lahat ng gusto nyang kainin at inumin ako na ang bibili at magbabayad. Hindi naman kasi ako sanay na may inaalagaan o kaya inaasikaso, kaya yun na talaga ang best kong magagawa. Akay-akay ko sya kahit sa may footbridge na ng Espanya. Bawal kasi syang mahiwalay sakin kasi nasa labas kami...at delikado.

Tinatanung ko na rin kung ano ang gusto nyang kainin at dessert kasi hindi ko na talaga alam ang gagawin ko sakanya. Medyo badtrip na ako kasi ang init init, hindi na ako makasama sa blockmates ko, at hindi na rin ako makapag-enjoy. But I realized din na 'it's worth the sacrifice'. Tuluyan na talaga akong hindi nakasama and I was locked to her na. We ended up eating together in Goldilocks, i wasn't talking na, and masungit nako nun. Sakin kasi nakatapat ang aircon!!! Juice ko, nag-evaporate na ang katubigan sa katawan ko para akong nahipan ng ipo-ipo. Sobrang lamig!!! grrr....Suddenly, pinuntahan ako nila Maki...hindi na sila sumama kila Potian kumain at binalikan kami nila ikee. Nahiya na talaga ako ng sobra...kasi ang bait talaga nila!Sobrang sweet pa, i'm so lucky to have them. Nawala na rin init ng ulo ko.

sabay-sabay kami bumalik sa UST at sama-sama rin kaming nanuod ng concert, ahem, kasama ko pa rin si Ikee. Someone asked me why I couldn't leave Ikee...sagot ko: 'you don't leave a Gonzales alone, especially if 'ikee' s the name...fragile sya. :)) Medyo na-hurt nga ako kasi, Ikee kept texting her friends and I felt like she's planning to leave me rin after all the risks and sacrifices na nagawa ko na.Hay nako, pero sabi nya hindi naman daw, so I believed. :)

Nag-enjoy naman kami sa program and sobrang dami ang inokray namin during the show. At syempre, umaasa talaga kami dun sa raffle prizes!!! :)) kaso puro naman ENG o COMMERCE ang nananalo. At 10 o'clock, nagpaalam muna ako kila Maki kasi may meeting kami ng HS friends ko sa harap ng Main sa pamumuno ni Roxybabes. Nagkita-kita nga kami at nalaman namin na si Abi pala ay nawalan ng cp. Pagod na pagod na talaga ako nun, at hawak ko pa rin si Ikee. Pinilit kami ni Rox na samahan syang kumain. At napadpad kami sa Matthew's. Si ikee, hindi pa nakuntento sa pasakit sakin at nagpabili pa sya ng Raspberry shake sakin. Nauto naman ako, at parehas naman kasi kaming uhaw. Nag-kwentuhan naman kami, at kung sinu-sino nakita namin. Umupo na nga ako sa semento sa sobrang pagod habang naghahanap sila ng makakainan. Hindi na ako nakabalik kila Faye, nagtext nalang ako kasi prisoner nako ni Roxy.

Masaya noong nanuod kami ng fireworks. Amazing talaga, tulo-laway kaming lahat! Sayang at hindi nakapunta si Michelle. I forgot to mention na inabot ko rudely yung regalo ko kay Ikee nung nakaupo palang kami at sandali palang kami magkasama. Pano kasi, nahihiya nga ako kaya ganun ako magbigay ng regalo...hinid talaga nakatingin. Kay Janina lang talaga ako sweet. YZUng kay Roxy naman, sinaksak ko sa baga nya habang nagkasalubong kami sa 3rd floor nung umaga.

Noong natapos ang Paskuhan, umuwi muna kami sa Pacific upang kumuha ng pajama na baklang-bakla para sa sleepover kila Ikee.On the way sa Pacific, merong mga patung-patong na garden hose na makapal sa ground. Hinto ito napansin ni Ikee kaya bumulagta sya. Nakadipa kahalikan ang lupa, dun pa sa madaming tao nadapa ang loko! Buti nalang hawak ko kamay nya, kaya kalahati ng katawan nya ay nasalo ko naman. Mukha tuloy nadapa rin ako. Pero buti naman at ayos lang siya. Pinagpag ko pa ang pantalon nya at mabilisan ko tinulungan patayo bago mamukhaan ng mga tao. Ang masama nyan, natawag namin syang ikee habang nadapa sya...nalaman tuloy ang pangalan! hahaha, nung una, hindi lang namin pinansin ang pagsemplang ni ikee. Pero di namin natiis ni Janina na tumawa. Eh tuwing paglingon ko kasi sa likuran, si Janina naka-smile...hindi ko na tuloy mapigilan pagtawanan si Ikee. Pero himala, hindi ako binira ni ikee sa braso kahit pinagtawanan ko sya...nakakatawa naman kasi itsura! parang humalik sa lupa. :)) Nadatnan namin si Charis at Kuya Mac sa aming kwarto ng bonggang bongga! hay nako, sandali lang kami at umalis na rin kami. On the way sa bahay ni Ikee, nakasalubong ko pa si Wong (blockmate ko). Nakarating na rin kami at tinulungan ko si Ikee mag-setup ng air bed. Minsan, naisip ko rin na mas fulfilling kung mag technician nalang ako. :))

Nag-pajama na kaming lahat at humiga na ako sa tiyan ni Rox. :)) nagpicture-picture muna kami nila Janina. Tapos ang gay talaga! :)) then, lowbatt na kaming lahat kaya nahiga na kami ng maayos. Katabi ko si Ikee, tapos ginawa ko syang bolster sa pagtulog. shush! di nya ata alam, ayaw nya kasi i-share yung kanya eh. tapos lahat sila tulog na, ako nalang ang hindi. Maaga kong pinatay ang aircon kasi si Janina ay nilalamig ng todo-todo. Pagkagising ko, wala na si Janina...umuwi na. Kaming natira naman ay nag-internet muna at nanuod sa mga pinapakita samin ni Roxybabes. Kumain kami sabay sabay at syempre, nahiya na naman akong damihan ang kanin kasi hindi ko bahay yun. :)) kaya konti lang nakain ko...pero mas madami pa rin kesa sa iba. Umuwi na kami, tapos bumalik pagkababa...naiwan ko kasi ung jacket ko sa kama ni Ikee. Then totoo ng umuwi ako. Nag-ayos ako agad ng gamit kasi uuwi na ako ng bulacan. Dapat kila Ikee ako sasabay at sobrang pinipilit na ako...pero hindi talaga pwede kahit gusto ko man. Ayaw maniwala ni Lola Nelda na hindi ako pwedeng sumabay,ang kulet. Need ko kasi bumili ng gift para kay Daddy.

Nakauwi na ako ng Bulacan after 2 months na hindi umuuwi. KO ako sa kwarto pagdating at doon na rin nagsimula maging irregular ang tulog ko. Noong gabi naman, Christmas party for the staffs sa ospital namin. I had to play the piano for a special number with my family.

Again, i have no regrets to all the things that happened that day when i saw the amazing fireworks in UST. Cheers for PASKUHAN 2009!

-S.Reyes

NIGHT CLUB PACIFIC

Matagal na itong nangyari pero hindi mawala-wala sa aking pag-iisip ang natatanging kalokohan na nagawa. Ilang months na rin kami nila Janina, Charis, at Ate Aira magkakasama sa Pacific Suites. Syempre, merong pinagtibay na pagsasamahan at hindi rin maiiwasan ang mga balak gawing kalokohan. Ito ay isang kwento para magbigay ligaya sa inyong pasko, isang munting regalo na puno ng katatawanan mula sa aking puso. Kailangan lang ng patnubay ng mga magulang sa mga susunod na babasahin. PG 13 ito, (patay-gutom 13) :))

Ang mga susunod na eksena ay binabalutan ng maseselan na aksyon na gawa ng mga batang minor de edad kabilang ang awtor. :p

Pacific Suites, Dapitan room M05, oras: gabi.
Tapos ng mag-aral si Janina at ako, si Ate Aira naman ay wala sa loob ng kwarto noong gabing iyon. Si Charis ay nag-aaral pa rin para sa kanyang quiz kinabukasan. Hindi ko masyadong maalala pero Botany ata yung ni-rreview nya. Ako'y kumanta ng mga FOB (Fall Out Boy) songs at biglang nakisabay na si Janina. Ang mga kanta ay dedicated kay Charis Cauyao...parang bugaw lang kami habang nag-aaral sya. :))

Kumuha na kami ng mga bagay para gawin mic at nag-concert. Napakaingay talaga pero hindi lang ito pansin ni Charis. Maya-maya lang, kinuha na ni Janina ang kumot nya at binalot sa katawan animo'y gown ni Regine Velasquez. Kinuha ko man ang aking lampin para ipaikot ito sa ere, para cool. Tumatayo na kami sa kama at nagtatalon, pero wala paring pakialam si charis. Dahil hindi ito umepekto, binuksan na ni Janina ang laptop nya at nagpatugtog ng 'Nobody' at sinayaw namin ito ng bigay na bigay. Medyo napapagod na kami at namamaos pero tuloy pa rin ang laban!

Pinatay namin ang ilaw at napatigil si charis. Kinuha ko ang aking flashlight sa aking cabinet para gawin disco effects. Dahil napakadilim, mas kaakit-akit na ang paligid. Winagayway ko ang flashlight at parang disco na talaga, pero white ang ilaw. Sobrang sayaw na kami ni Janina at todo tagatak na ang aming pawis at pag-anod nito sa kasingit-singitan ng aming kilikili :)))))))

Nakuha na namin ang atensyon ni Charis na parang galit na sya sa amin. Naisipan namin syang bigyan ng regalo upang mawala ang inis nya samin. PInatugtog ni Janina and 'careless whisper' at biglang nanigas si charis sa kinauupuan nya. Sobrang nakuha na namin ang kanyang atensyon. Unti-unti na kaming gumiling kasabay ng mga kulot kulot na nota sa kanta. Mabagal na pagkembot palapit ng palapit kay charis. Sobrang tahimik na nya. :)) tapos patuloy p0a rin ang pagikot ng aming katawan, bababa, aakyat, kukuha ng props, at gigiling ng todo todo. Tumigil sandali si Janina---akala ko pagod na pero nagkamali ako. Tumabi sya sa kama ni Charis, hinawakan ang pole at pumaikot-ikot habang gumigiling pababa! grabeh, sobrang nanghina ako sa kakatawa. Puro kalokohan talaga sya.

Successful naman ang pang-aakit na nagawa namin kay Charis. Tawa talaga ako ng tawa sa mga reaksyon ni Charis. Akala nya, hindi kami marunong gumiling! nakakainis. Pero nakakahiya talaga ang mga pinaggagawa namin. Wag nyo itong tularan.

KO kami ni Janina after ng exhausting na pang-aakit na ginawa namin.

*wala talaga tong sense. I just wrote this after dinner. Walang magawa!

-S.Reyes

100,000

Magkakosa sa saya,
Magkakosa sa mga puna.
O kay bait mong nilalang,
Bakit ka NIYA hinayaan--iniwanan.
Lugmok sa burak ng kalungkutan.
Maghintay ka kaibigan.
Huhugutin ka,
daang libong taong magpapaligaya.
Si isip mo'y di makakalimutan ang sayang dala.
Salamat kaibigan sa pagtulong mo kanina.
Hayaan mo't isa ako sa daang libong---
magpapasaya.



*Guys, hindi ako gumawa nyan. ako lang nag-edit.
Tula by Eve Roxanne Apostol...she just sent it as a text message as a sign of appreciation because i helped her with her Konseptong papel.
I hope you appreciate her work as much as I do. :) cheers to roxy!

Pawer Reynger Penk

Sa Filipino namin ay pinapagawa kami ng Oral na Kasaysayan ng isang tao. Naisipan ko gumawa ng pang-sarili ko. Kailangan kasi Senior Citizen ang gagawan ng Oral na Kasaysayan kaso feel ko mas interesting pag sarili ko. :))
Hindi naman ako Senior citizen kaya hindi siguro tayo nagkakalayo ng taon. malamang lamang kalang ng konting sampal at taon sakin kaya makaka-relate ka sa aking mga ikukwento. Ang Oral na Kasaysayan nga pala ay para ipakita ang pag-kakaiba ng generations ng mga tao. Alam kong para sa inyo, interesting ang nakalipas na mga dekada sapagkat hindi ninyo ito naranasan...sa tingin ko naman mas maganda ang istorya ko kasi ako ang "kinabukasan".

OK, sobrang egocentric na talaga ako. Na-kwento ko na ba tungkol sa paaralan kong pinanggalingan? syempre, alam kong sawa na kayo doon. Pero madami talagang pwedeng ikwento doon kasi maraming taon sa aking buhay na doon lang umikot.

Nag- Day Care ba kayo? ako kasi nag- Day Care. Nakasuot kami ng pulang damit (ang sakit sa mata) at merong belt na kulay puti. Tapos, ang cute ko! :)) napakataba ko pa. Ako ang pinakamatalino sa klase, :)) yabang no? hahahah I know,, Actually, sa likod lang ng aming bakuran ang building kung saan ako pumapasok. Magsasayang lang kayo ng pera pag-nag Day Care ka...Puro lamon lang ginagawa ng mga bata doon at guro! pakulay-kulay sa mga papel na pangit naman ang kalalabasan! Hindi talaga advisable yan. Isa ako dati sa pinaka-tamad pumasok na bata. Mas madami pa akong natututunan sa bahay o kaya sa ospital kung saan ako lagi dinadala ni Mommy.

Hinahatid ako ni Nanay Lita (yaya na mahal na mahal ako). Tapos, maarte ako kaya nag-papapakarga pa ko kahit marunong nako mag-lakad at mag-trike. Pagkahatid sakin, lagi kong sinusubukan na umuwi mag-isa kahit kiddie palang ako. Weird nga weh, naaalala ko pa mga kalokohan ko dati. Sharp ang memory ko! woot

Meron akong kalaro sa ospital namin na RonRon ang pangalan. Tapos kinukulong ko siya sa isang room para masaya. >:) Naglalaro man ako ng bahay-bahayan kasama si KlangKlang (kapit-bahay). Tapos, naghiwalay na kami ng landas noong nagiba ko ang bahay nya. :)) Noong panahon ko, uso talaga ang inuulit ang pangalan.

May pagka-terorista talaga ako noong bata ako. Hindi man kasi ako pinapayagan ng parents kong lumabas at makipaglaro sa ibang bata kaya batang-bahay at batang-ospital lang ako.

Uso man dati sa canteen ng school ko yung Chocolate cigarettes. Napaka-sarap talaga tapos loko! , mukhang totoo talaga. Ang name ba naman eh Chocoboro (parang Marlboro, pero FAIL). Hanggang lumaki ako, nag-hahanap pa rin ako noon sa sobrang sarap. Ipinagbawal na ata yun ng pamahalaan kasi masamang impluwensya sa mga bata. Ayun, iniyakan ko nalang para maka-recover sa linamnam.

Pag-nasa ospital ako, lagi akong nagpapanggap na doctor. Role-playing kung baga, pero totoong instruments ang ginagamit ko. Doon kasi ako laging dine-deposit ng parents ko. Kaya kung sinu-sino nakakahawak sa aking mailap na balat. :)) At syempre, ang bonggang-bongga kong attire na mahabang sando at panty. :)) matching colors pa!

Mahal na mahal ako sa ospital, kasi kailangan sumisip sa aking nanay. :)) ang evil ko talaga. Mahal ko man ang ospital sapagkat dito ang aking yungib taehan. Pagnagigidiyup ako, pinapalipit ko lang ang aking legs at nagtatago sa likod ng blinds para ma-stop ang pagbuga ng masamang usok at basura ng aking munting tiyan.

Isa ako sa pinaka-maarte na bata sa school namin. Para laging Christmas tree ang aking buhok until grade 5 ako. Meron pa akong sariling yaya para ipitan ang aking buhok na kung anung style gusto ko. Pinagsabihan ako ng Ninang ko (may ari ng school) kaya na-stop na ang aking kaartehan.

Uso man noon ang Mighty Morphin Power Rangers. Idol ko yung pink, kasi GAY ako na bata. Nag-pabili ako kay Mami ng action figure na Power Ranger Pink. di ba, nagiging tao man ang power rangers pag walang laban...Kaya naisipan ko tanggalin ang helmet nung action figure ko. Nang tinanggal ko na, nakita ko walang lamang ulo. Nainis ako ay Mami, at akala ko na tinatago nya ang ulo ni power ranger pink kasi pinagtatawanan niya ako.

Pinipilit ko siya ibalik ang ulo ni power ranger pink pero wala talaga. At doon nag-simula ang hindi ko pagkain at tuluyan pumayat ako. :)) Inspiration ko kasi si power ranger pink pag-kumakain. Akala ko magiging malakas ako at magkaka-helmet pag kumain ako. Eh wala naman pala syang ulo. :)))) ang babaw talaga.

Merong uwi si Mami na Pluto stuffed toy from Disney Land Florida. Mahal na mahal ko ito at until now buhay pa siya pero kupas na ang tenga. Yung tenga kasi noon ang kinakagat kagat ko. Natuyuan na ng laway ko. :))

Syempre, nang lumaki ako, may advance technology na. Nauso ang gameboy at naadik ako dito. Ako nalang walang gameboy habang yung ibang mga bata meron na. kaya nagpabili ako. Laging umaalis si Mami, pumupunta sa ibang bansa para sa mga medical conventions. Nag-punta siya ng london at doon nya ako binili, kahit akala ko na nakalimutan na nya ang wish ko for my b-day. saktong b-day ko kasi sya dadating dito noon sa Pilipinas. Guess what? I got the colored gameboy from London, at hindi pa noon yun dumadating sa pilipinas. Puro hindi colored. oha!!! love ako ni Mommy.

Nang-lumabas at nauso na ang playstation, dito na naiba ang buhay ko. Lalo akong naging walanghiya. :))))) hindi na ako lalo nag-aral ng mabuti.

Mahilig man ako maligo sa labas ng bahay. EXPOSED. :)) napaka child porn. :)) Kami nila Trisha at Jolo ay naliligo sa front yard ng bahay namin. Nagpapa-shot kami ng tubig gamit an mga garden hose. Tapos yung yaya namin, meron pang umbrella sa ulo, parang tanga lang!

Naglalaro man ako sa ospital gamit ang injections and syringe as water guns. Nauubos ang supply namin at nauubos din ang damit ng mga nurses sa kakapalit. :)) Pero syempre, hindi nila ako pwede pagalitan. bwahahahah! >:)

Maaga akong natuto ng bike sa usual na bata. Pero paikot-ikot lang lagi sa garahe namin at basketball court. Trip ko man mag-padausdos sa bundok bundok na landscape sa aming bahay. Nang minsan, inaya ko ang yaya ko na maki-join sa mountain sliding kaso ayaw nya. Nang malapit nako mag-slide, naunahan ba naman ako ng yaya ko! :)))) nauna pa siyang bumalintuwad sakin! itsura lang! napaka-PANNY.

Sagana ako sa libro noong bata ako until now. Kaya akala ng mga tao pagnagsalita at nagsulat ako, matalino nako. Pero hindi naman, listo lang naman ako. Ang kaibahan nga lang, supply ng magulang ko ang libro, eh ngayon ako na ang bumibili. Mahilig man akong magbasa simula bata palang ako. Mga story books at encyclopedia ang mga una kong binanatan.

At sumasama ako sa yaya ko mamalengke, pero illegal! kasi bawal talaga ako lumabas, over protective para kay bunso, bawal daw ako mag-english. Kasi nga, hindi daw siya makakatawad sa bilihin.

Grade 6 lang ako natuto sumakay ng tricycle at jeep. Grabeh! ang tanga ko talaga. Mahilig man ako mag-drawing noong bata ako, pero laging walang kulay kasi hindi talaga ako magaoling mag-kulay.

Kasabayan ko man lumai sila Rosalinda at Marimar sa teleserye. Pero syempre, hindi mawawala ang Batibot at Barney sa bawat bata sa aking henerasyon. Nag-ballet man ako, at napaka-walang kwenta. Ang natatandaan ko nalang ay ang teacher namin na BAKLA na may hikaw kung saan2x sa mukha. Kabilang ang dila at buhok sa ilong.

May kwento ako kaibigan, ikaw meron ba? ito ang kwento noong bata ko, aking kasaysayan binigyang buhay ng mga simbolo na ginamit sa tekstong ito. ;)

-S.Reyes

CR painted: J,S,J

Hindi lahat ng blogs about CR (comfort room) ay BASTOS. Ito isinulat ko lamang ito sapagkat kailangan ko mag-update ng blog ko. Kailangan ko man mag-practice magsulat in Filipino kasi hindi ako gaanung kagaling dito. Naalala ko itong isang karanasaan noong High school na humulma sa aking pagkatao at sa kaluluwa ng aking mga kasama.

Ito ay isang istorya ng tatlong dalaga, dalawang maganda at isang katanggap-tanggap ang mukha. Seryoso ako, kaya't wag muna kayo magsi-tawa. Itago natin si babe #1 sa pangalang Sam Reyes, si babe #2 (Janina Mercado), at si hunk #3, este BABE, ay Jassiel Gallego (hindi nya tunay na pangalan). Samahan nyo akong bumalik sa nakaraan, balikan ang pinagaralan sa T.L.E na walang kabuluhan.Kung naaalala nyo pa ang subject na yon, doon nag-simula ang aming kwento.

Actually, napaka walang kwenta talaga ng TLE. Luto-luto, laba, tahi, lamon, handicraft...WALANG KAMATAYAN! hindi na dapat ito pag-aralan. Meron kaming project nung 3rd year sa Handicraft...dapat recycled materials lang ang gagamitin. Sa totoo lang, kunwari pang tipid ang papagawin sayo pero gagastos ka pa rin! nakakainis lang. Tatlo kami sa grupo, si Janina at Jassiel ang kasama ko. Naisipan namin gumawa ng Pencil Holder gawa sa lata at papalamutian. Gumamit kami ng lumang magazine at ini-roll ito at kinabit sa mga ata. Isang latang malaki ang ginamit ko. Kay Janina naman at pahabang lata, kay Jassiel dalawang maliit na lata ng sardinas :)) Piknik yung akin!!! talo 555!

Napaka-gothic ng design namin ni Janina yung kay Jassiel napaka bakla...pero FAIL kasi pangit. :)) Mukhang lalagyan lang ng barya yung kanya...mas malaki pa ang pencil. Inadvice kami na gumamit ng poster paint para sa project, hindi kami sumunod kasi mahal iyon. Ako ang naatasan nila Janina na bumili ng pintura. Binili ko yung "CHALLENGER" na paint...yung ginagamit sa bahay istraktura talaga. Mura iyon at malapot pa sa sipon ni Alyssa.

Wait ah, natatawa ako sa mga sinasabi ko. :))

Ayun, nag-start na kami gumawa ng project. Medyo matagal namin ito ginawa. Nakailang meetings man kami before natapos at pinasa. Nagulat kami na kasama pala sa contest ng club celebration ng TLE yung project namin. Tae! napaka pangit pa naman nung samin. :)) parang basurang may design...yung kay Jassiel kasi weh. Parang added accessory lamang.

Nung second meeting namin kami nag-paint. Pagtapos namin mag-paint hinugasan namin ang mga brushes sa CR. Nako, ito na ang climax! Since maarte at tuso kami ni Janina, inuto namin si Jassiel na hugasan ang lahat ng brushes dahil pagod na kami. Lintik lang ano... :)) hindi pa kami bully lagay na yan. Nag-start nung 4th year ang pagiging bully namin.So, ginawa naman ni Jassiel ang mga intutos namin. Hindi namin alam na hindi naman pala marunong maglinis ng brushes si Jassiel. Ang ginawa nya ay kinuskos ang mga brushes sa lababo para matanggal ang pinta. Apaka tanga, hindi pa naman natatanggal yung pintura na ginamit namin!!! Dito na nagkaloko-loko ang buhay namin. Nung una, tawa lang kami ng tawa nang isang araw----

"Sam, kakausapin daw kayo ni Ms.Manlapas", ani ni Carmela (>_<). Si Ms. Manlapas ay ang principal namin nung high school, sa mga hindi nakakaalam. Nakow! ayon na...na-sense na namin kung bakit kami pinapatawag. Inadmit namin ang kasalanan na nagawa. Technically, si Jassiel ang may kagagawan ng lahat pero as a group, walang iwanan kahit kamatayan. Napagalitan kami at inutusan kaming tanggalin ang pintura. Napagalitan si Teacher May (TLE teacher) dahil sa aming ginawang kalokohan. Xempre, wala na kaming mukhang ihaharap kay T.May...nakakahiya talaga at napagalitan pa siya dahil samin. Feel tuloy namin na siya ay galit samin.

Ang ginawa namin hakbang ay bumili ng mga panlinis, kanya kanya kaming dala nila Janina. Sagot ko ang escoba, ang sabon kau Janina, ang kamay kay jassiel. Joke lang! this time, tulung-tulong na kaming gumawa...baka kasi sa susunod masira na ni Jassiel ang buong sink. :))

Mukha kaming kawawa at mga janitor. Yung mga ibang year nakita man kaming nag-lilinis. Puno ng pagtatakha ang kanilang mga mukha. Pano kasi, ang mga maangas ay banyo lang pala ang bagsak! :)) oh juice ko.Hindi namin natanggal. Actually, ok lang naman kung may-paint yun eh. Di naman nakakamatay. Sana pala, mas maganang mga kulay ginamit namin. PO kaya, bumili nalang ang school ng bagong sink kung ayaw nilang makitang pangit, mahal naman tuition namin eh. Pero syempre, hindi ko naman talaga kayang sabihin yan lahat. Ito ay tawag na "Tahimik na pag-aalsa".

Sumulat kami ng letter kay teacher May upang humingi ng tawad sa aming nagawang nakakahiwa ng puso. Pinatawad naman kami at mataas parin ang nakuha namin sa project. Nakahanap si Ms. Manlapas ng alagad para linisin ang namolestyang lababo. Natanggal na ang pinta. Sa wakas!

Isinama sa exhibit ang aming project upang malaman kung sinong grupo ang dapat manalo. Wait! pangit nga pala yung project nung iba...meron pa ngang frame gawa sa nilamas na coca-cola cans (grupo ni Charis), meron namang flower vase na puno ng GAY RIBBONS (kila ikee). :)) Hindi talaga matatapos ang post na ito na wala akong lalaitin.

Wala kaming kaalam-alam na madami pala ang nag-kakagusto sa aming project. Napakaganda daw ito at tulo-laway lahat ng nakakakita. Bukod sa mga henyo ang gumawa, ito ay functional at matibay. Sakyan man ng elepante, hindi ito magigiba.

Isang Monday morning ang dumating, at announcement na pala ng winners. Wala kaming kaalam-alam talaga na totoo pala yung contest. Mukha kasing joke lang. tapos...

NANALO KAMI!

oha oha, galing noh??? totoo yan, at 1st place ang nakuha namin. Daig pa namin yung mga hindi nagkaron ng CR SCANDAL! Ano ang lesson sa istorya?

"Kung minsang nagmukhang criminal, pwede pa ring maging artista."
:))

inspirational pa!
baka gusto nyo ng katibayan, pakita ko pa yung certificate namin.

-S.Reyes

Alamat ng Bulate Isinulat ni: Sam Reyes

Once upon a time, there was CHANGE...the only thing PERMANENT in this world.
This is a story, but not a story actually, about evolution. Not really, this is just another concoction of mine, trying to figure out if it would attract attention. It has been a long time since I started college. I miss high school a lot but sometimes I know I must not. There are reasons why I shouldn't miss high school, and there are so much to want to get back in time for. In this post, I have stated the observations and comparisons between the FORMER and the EXISTING.

Ipagpaumanhin niyo sana kung ako'y mag-tatagalog. Hindi naman ako laking ibang bansa at hindi man ako ipinanganak sa lugar na malayo sa kabihasnan ng Pilipinas. So, Mag-tatagalog ako *bow*.

Noong HS, kami ang merong pinakamaganda na uniform sa buong Pulilan. Madaming nag-sasabi na mukhang pangmayaman daw ang aming mga uniform. Ito'y my puti na pangtaas na may rosas sa isang collar, at malalanding lukot sa harapan. Ang palda naman namin ay itim na checkered at hindi dumihin. Magkakatalo nalang sa amoy. :)) Maganda nga, pero ang reklamo ko lang ay wala itong kurba...CURVE sa gilid, ayon sa mga bakla. Pag-suot mo ito, hindi ka HOT at mukhang batang-bata ka. Ngayon naman, meron ng HOT CURVES, kita na ang korte mo loko! Kaso, saksakan naman ito ng puti. As in, yung lang ang kulay. Buti na lang ay A-CUT sa Science...utang na loob mo pang makagalaw ka.

Dati ay hinahatid ako ni DaddyLoves pag-pasok sa school. Si Mang Carlos naman ang dakila kong driver at kasama niya si Ate Azonez (katulong) sa aking pag-sundo sa hapon. Minsan ay kasabay ko si Janina sa pag-uwi sapagkat malapit lang ang bahay niya sa amin. Pag may nakakalimutan ako, itatawag ko lang sa bahay ang aking kailangan at dadalin na ito agad. Bawal kami mag-dala ng cellphone dati kaya ang ginagamit ko ay ang telepono sa Office. Pinapayagan akong gumamit doon kasi sikat ako at nakukuha ko ang kanilang loob dahil sa charms ko. :)) Ngayon naman, wala na ang buhay prinsesa kong ala-hatid-sundo. Ako'y kasama na sa karaniwan na nag-lalakad patungong school. Pag may nakakalimutan ako, kailangan ko pang tumakbo pauwi para kuhanin ang gamit. Pag-gusto ko gumala dati, mag-papahatid lang ako kay Mang Carlos kung saan ko gusto basta't mag-papaalam lang ako sa aking magulang kung pwede. Ngayon, ang gamit ko ay Lokal na trasportasyon upang gumala. Walang kaso sakin iyon, pero hindi lang talaga ako sanay. Kaya tatanga-tanga ako minsan.

Sa probinsya, malinis-linis pa ang hangin at konti ang tao. Kaya medyo na culture-shock ako pag-tira dito sa Manila. Hindi naman malayo sa kabihasnan ang Bulacan. Actually, 45 minutes away lang ito sa Manila, pag-traffic naman ay 1 oras mahigit. Ang Bulacan naman ay malapit lang sa Manila, hindi ito yung akala ninyong tirahan ng maglalatik o kaya naman makikita doon ang "El Rancho de Kabayo", nagkakamali kayo. Medyo sanay naman ako sa Manila sapagkat dito ako lumaki nung bata ako. Meron kaming bahay dito. Sa Manila man kami nag-sshopping ng aking Mommy dahil mahilig siyang gumala. Hindi nga lang ako sanay sa mausok at populated na lugar. Medyo exiled ang pamilya namin sa Bulacan kasi exclusive si Mommy. Dito sa Manila, kalat ang mga sunog-baga at sunog-nguso. kahit saan ka lumingon, merong naninigarilyo o kaya nag-susugal. Sa Pulilan, konti lamang ang naningarilyo, pero may maraming mukhang sigarilyo na mismo.

Kung mag-dasal kami dati ay daig pa ang simbahan! Maya't maya ang aming pagdadasal at hindi ko naman kinahihya ito. Dito ako natutong maging malapit sa Diyos at mahalin ang aking mga magulang. Ngayon naman, parang kinakain nako ng mundo. Minsa'y nakakalimutan ko na mag-dasal dahil sa pagod. Nawala na yung dati kong pagka-madasalin. Syempre, minsan man sa aking buhay na-feel ko talagang madasalin ako...hindi naman akong ganung kasama noh! :)) Sobrang haba ng mga dasal namin dati...ngayon isang "Glory-Be" lang, pwede na. 30 minutes ata kami mag-dasal dati before mag-start ang klase.

Mas madami akong kaklase ngayon. Sa dati kong school kasi 1 section per year lang. Napaka konti namin talaga...32 lang ata kami tapos ngayon 53. :)) Kahit konti dati, masaya naman at talagang close ang batch namin. Sila kasi classmates ko simula nursery until 4th year kaya parang mag-kakapatid na talaga kami. Maayos naman ang mga kaklase ko ngayon. Makukulit at mahaharot...basta masaya!!! woot!!! Dati, kilala ko lahat ng tao sa school namin...ngayon naman, sobrang dami kaya mahirap alamin at suriin ang pinag-mulan pag may gwapo akong nakita. Takte! :))

Patapon ang buhay high school ko. Kabilang ako sa mga dakilang irresposable sa klase (Proud pa ko nyan ah!). Hindi ako nag-papasa ng requirements on time at ang homework ko sa ginagawa ko ng 10 mins befor the bell. Reyna ako ng cramming, wala talaga akong time management. Pinagawa-gawa pa kami ng time table dati, hindi ko naman sinusunod. Ang nilagay ko dun may time for studies pero sa totoo lang, kinakain ang oras ko ng tv at internet. Ewan ko lang kung naniwala yung teacher ko doon sa fake kong time table. :)) pakitang-gilas!!! Ngayon, nag-improve nako! sobrang responsible, ay di pala masyado, pero at least super effort ako ah. Meron nakong determination at cheverness!!! :)) Mas masipag pako sa mga masipag kong kaklase dati, oha oha!!!

Kung dati, poor study habits ako....Ngayon naman sobra-sobra pa sa BEST! Nag-babasa ako ng advance. Eh dati, ang binabasa ko yung mga book na hindi related sa studies. Juice ko, pero nakakasagot parin ako sa school kasi nakikinig naman ako minsan.

Ang mga tao sa Pulilan ay halos mga matanda o kaya naman mas bata-bata sa akin. Dito sa Manila, kalat ang mga "kanto boyz" at "yo wazzup" sa paligid. Iba't iba rin ang kulay ng balat dito. Meron kayumangi, maputi, maitim, sobrang itim, saksakan ng itim, at nalintikan ng uling......ang batok. :))

Dati mag-hapon ang klase namin, pero wala nagagawa. Ngayon, super activity-filled bawat araw. Talagang napapagod ako. Dati, napapagod lang ako sa kakaupo o kaya sa kakabantay sa orasan, hinihintay ang uwian. Sobrang maaga kailangan gumising at nakaka-stress talaga. May mga kaagaw ka pa sa banyo...di tulad sa bahay namin...pwede ako mag- "BANYO CONCERTO". Ngayon, kailangan ko magpigil pag na-gigidiyup na ko o kaya patayan na ang civil war sa tiyan ko. :))))

Syempre naman, talagang mas mahirap ang mga subjects ngayon. Dati, nakakapasa ako ng may sobrang taas na marka kahit hindi nag-aaral. Dito, gagapangin mo talaga ang talahiban bago maka-puntos. :))

Mga bagetz ang teachers namin kaya kinakaya nalang namin at inaabuso. Konti lang ang natatandaan kong nirespeto kong teacher talaga at kinatakutan. :)) Ngayon, halos lahat ay doctor kaya hindi ako makaka-angas. Pero masaya naman ang iba kahit matanda na. Nakakatakot talaga yung iba, sobrang natatahimik ako. ang nature ko pa naman ay maloko at maingay pero syempre, nahihya pa ako.

Natural naman na late na ako matulog at inaabutan na ng umaga. Kaso, dati wala akong pinagkakapuyatan kung hindi sa panunuod ng dvd o kaya pag-iinternet. Ngayon,puyat at pagod. Extra Joss ang kailangan!!! at para naman sa muscle na nakapalipit, alaxan IP-AR :))))

Nabanggit ko nga kanina na ako'y madasalin na bata. Dati naglalakad kami papuntang Adoration chapel upang magdasal. Ilang kanto ang lalakarin mo papunta doon, pero tinitiis ko. Gusto ko kasi ipagdasal mga mahal ko sa buhay. Ayun lang, serious yan ah. Ngayon, pagkalapit-lapit ng chapel pang-dasalan, hindi ko pa mapuntahan. Kung hindi dahil sa Roxanne, hindi nako pupunta ng chapel upang magpasalamat at magdasal. Katulad nga ng sabi ko, unti-unti nakong kinakain ng mundo. :( Pero, hindi ako mawawalan ng pag-asa kasi may naniniwala na hindi ako susukahan ng reyalidad. Sobrang Matalinhaga...sa suka pa nahalintulad.

Ang mga homework dati ay pwedeng 10 minutes before time lang gawin, hindi ka pa mahahalata ng teacher. Ngayon, isang homework lang kakainin ang buong araw mo. dati, hindi ako conscious sa deadlines kasi ayos lang naman sakin kahit late ako magpasa..wala naman kasing pinagkaiba...nauuna lang yung iba tapos akin yung "grand finale" :)) Nag-ppalate man ako dati kasi boring talaga ang pinag-aaralan. Paulit-ulit lang. Pag-late ka, sobrang basa pa ng buhok mo kaya dun lang mahahalata. SC pa naman ako at bantay sa lates tapos, kahiya-hiyang violator man ako. Ngayon naman, maaga akong pumapasok para maganda simula ng araw ko.

Ang circle of friends ko dati ay four lang kami tapos puro girls. Ngayon, halu-halo at mas madami sa barkada. Medyo tipong Scholastics nga kami kasi kaming four na magkakaibigan ay lahat nasa top ten. Pero parang ang masipag lang si Janina at Ikee. Kami ni Michelle, walang pag-asa! :))

Ang high school merong daily routine. May time for break at pareparehas ang nangyayari sa araw. Di tulad pag college, everyday is different from the other. Sobrang daming twists and surprises.

Sabi ni Ate Lilia, pag-college daw dapat shoulder bags and high heels for the young ladies. Sa pag-iisip ko lang, papahirapan lang natin ang ating mga sarili pag ganun. Mas ok ang back-pack kasi napakadaming books!!! Papatayin lang ng heels and paa mo sa paglalakad! tusatado ka pa pag sobrang inti ng singaw na lupa. :)) ang ironic diyan eh, kakabili lang sakin ni ate ng school shoes na Naturalizer, tapos flats...ay nako! Marami kasi siyang pera kaya naisipan nya akong bilhan ng shoes. Siya man may bigay nung G.H. Bass flats ko na overused since nasira ko yung cheap shoes na ginagamit ko dati.

Ang weekends ko dati ay parang usual day lang kasi the same din naman ginagawa ko, ang kaibahan nga lang...mas madaming oras. Ngayon, kahit weekends need kong mag-aral at gumawa ng stuffs for school. Oh di ba, nakita niyo na ba ang mga pagkakaiba?

Syempre, may mga gusto akong balikan sa nakaraan pero hindi ko naman kayang iwanan ang nakalaan sa aking kapalaran. :) mag-punas ka muna, tulo laway ka o.

*alam ko, walang kinalaman ang title sa nilalaman nito pawang kalokohan lamang. yari ka.


-S.Reyes

A new story, A New Moon, from a New Perspective

"a new story, a New Moon, from a new perspective"


I realized in time that I should reserve a new page for the new characters in my life. It's not that I'm sick with the old ones and wild with the new. Well, I'm pertaining to my old friends ... well, let me re-phrase it, "high school friends"; of course there would be exceptions (let's hide them in their initials: J,E,M). I really enjoy the new company that I have, and I'm never been bitter to the old.It's just that everything's changing and I'm loving to well--knowing this is reality. I really got a very long day and it's better to end the day with a blog and a mixture of the PAST and FUTURE equals PRESENT.


So much for the dramatic intorduction...Well, the in-depth-stupidity of yours truly, striked the bell out of today again. I brought my all my books for today,anticipating that there would still be classes in spite of the Health service check-up scheduled in the morning. I loaded my backpack early in the morning and went to school unsually early and very prepared for classes ( too bad, there weren't classes). After our class in Logic, we proceeded to the Health Service for our health assessment.


We started with filling-up personal information in the data sheet then went to the second floor for dental examinations. Actually, the doctor who checked my teeth is 'gwapo' but he's uhm,.., GAY, i suppose. Maki announced that he needs his 15 teeth to be 'pastahan' for FREE. I wonder where 'FREE' is offered. We went to the Mandatory diagnosis test and it was friggin' COLD in there. I couldn't resist the call of bladderly (if there's such a word,) nature so I decided to urinate (very scientific, i know) in 'STAFFS ONLY C.R.'. I violated and got relieved by the suicidal action. I'd been there twice, violated twice, because I got the 'TSSSS ALARM' two times during the health thingy activity.


The doctor advised me to have another shot of the TETANUS Vaccine even I got the shot last year. Actually, I really got a lot of anti- and prevention in my body because I always have a free vaccine from my mother-- towards total immunization. Of course, I'M KIDDING :)


We lined up to room 108 to get our vaccine. I thought it was free but I was wrong,..., Another 'kaltas' in my moohlah (money) for that day. I went back to Mr. Brown Guy after I paid 40 pesos and got the vaccine. When I was in the line waiting...I went to the CR for another round. I saw Wong crying and Shei served as her human strap bundle :) I noticed the frightened face of Luz too. Back to the Brown Guy wearing Brown scrub suit, with brown skin and eyes...injected the vaccine and I was done. I was hoping that the Hot guy in white would give me the vaccine of heaven, but I ended up with the Brown guy.

I went to the Radiology section for our xray. I waited very long before I got my turn. I witnessed various Alien attacks (if you what i mean,) , drama, action, and drama (did I repeat the word?). We observed that Luzzy's not in her self lately (not in her usual 'self'). We asked what's wrong, but we only got tears for an answer. It left us with questions unanswered but we didn't mind and just comforted her. I went inside to the xray room, TOOK OFF my clothes...in the CR of course...and you know what happened??? I just got my xray in 2 seconds, whoa cool!!!


We hurriedly went to eat after Maki finished. I ate together with Jr, Maki, and Faye (the F4 , FAYEFOUR) :)) Roxybabes texted me so I failed to come with the group to SM for our New Moon ticket and reservations. I meet up with Roxy, together with her Bio blockmates waiting for there General Psychology book. She injected 'konsensya' to me, my second vaccine for the day, so I decided to accompany her to the chapel so both of us could pray. Woot! yes, I'm praying.


Let's fast-forward time and skip my before-math-class-sleeping. I hurriedly went back to school for my Math class. I got plus five for attending our class because almost all were not around. Oh yeah! eat my dust babeh! :))


I flew to Pacific to change my clothes so we could go to THE FRIDAY GIMIK. Maki waited for me to finish then we went to Mcdo Lacson together to meet up with Faye.Too bad, Jr couldn't come with us because of 'Dragona' daw. Whatever. I saw Faye from a distance, then we caught the perfect jeepney to SM San Lazaro. I paid Faye for my ticket as soon as we arrived at the Mall. We went up to the moviehouse, we bought Popcorn and drinks--a perfect Movie preparation. We went inside early, as soon as we were allowed to get in. We would really love to see the trailers of the other incoming movies.


As we watched New Moon, we comented who's HOT and NOT. When Jacob removed his shirt for the first time...GAY People from the opposite side applauded ( i confess, I applauded too) :)) woot! Well,in the ending... the words that squeezed and merely crushed our hearts made the audience applaud for the last time. The movie left us hanging, deprived, and thirsty for more of THE TWILIGHT SAGA.


The CR inside the cinema was full so we went outside. We were so 'pigil' na and couldn't hold our pee control anymore longer. We took time in waiting for an available not-so-populated jeepney. In our journey home, a kid rode the same jeep as ours and distributed envelopes asking for 'Maagang Pamasko'. Faye and I gave some coins to the kid, realizing how lucky we are. :( coins bring life to others, while some just throw it away.


We arrived at UST, hoping to get flashed with tremendous light setups for Christmas...but it was a FAIL. Faye accompanied me to Dapitan Gate because she needed to kill time while waiting for her sister. When I got home, I went out again to have dinner with Janina. We were alarmed when Janina read a text message from Michelle that she's in UST. We waited for her in the lobby with Gerald. We decided to have a walk in UST and to visit ate Kaye. We got the usual elevator experience, the thrill, the adrenalin.


Michelle is the queen of UNEXPECTEDNESS ;) really. The elevator creep us out...and Janina screamed and ran when we reached the St. Raymund's building. I had a long adventure for this day, and made me finish this long hell of a blog! Like I said, the PAST, PRESENT, and FUTURE could be in the same TIME.

Actually, I'm just inspired when I heard that a friend of mine wrote a blog...a very unusual phenomena for her. So I decided to write. I haven't wrote any updates lately. I hope I could find more time.


-S.Reyes

Friday the 13th

Throughout this week there was no rain, except for this day. Well, we had a free cut at lunch time because of the lunch meeting of the College of Science faculty. Hilary Clinton also dropped by in the morning...people flooding the streets and in UST grounds, rally outside, and feast for the gods. I decided not to go with Janina to SM due to severe headaches ( just kidding). I didn't feel like going with her because I was too sleepy and exhausted. I slept for 2 hours and skipped lunch. I set the alarm before 3:00 pm because Ikee said that we would meet up by that time. I woke up 30 mins. before the said time and I prepared my present for Jennifer. Ikee volunteered before, that she'd be my proxy on Jennifer's debut because I couldn't come (Hail to Katy Perry!). She'll be reading my note too, and be 'Sam Reyes' and ' Ikee Gonzales' at the same time on Saturday, 14th of November (Jennifer's debut celebration).

Well, Ikee texted me that she was out. I'd be late because I was still preparing for the gift. I rushed the gift preparation but I still did well on it. I grabbed my backpack and swifted to the door then out of the building. It was raining...hard...then harder, but I didn't have my umbrella. I was wet now, then totally wet. I entered the Main Building and looked for a place to get dry and rest from my running. I texted her, and flooded her phone. I received not a single reply. I believed that Roxanne was right, that Ikee is sometimes a ditcher :)) I waited for approximately 25 mins (Grabeh ah, and patient ko talaga...she taught me how). Before I decided to go home instead. The weather got worse and street were beginning to flood. My foot was soaked, I was totally wet (wet-look oh!), and I was pissed off.

As soon as I reached home (heaven!), I cleansed then changed to my comfty clothes. I blogged my previous post (Thursday the 12th) and relaxed for an hour. I received a message from Ikee that were full of 'Sam Sorry,'. She was out earlier than the usual. I didn't know what to reply because I was too annoyed even to text her. I received another message, she said she'd be dropping by at our condo so she could fulfill her broken promise (boo :|). That was the last thing I thought Ikee would do. She wouldn't even do that, or as I thought so.

She arrived, we seated at the sala at the lobby and did our agreement. I decided to 'hatid' her (of course! papabayaan ko ba naman siyang maglakad mag-isa?! hindi no, itsura kaya nyan. WEAK ba naman, at hindi safe maglakad mag-isa noh). She said goodbye but I accompanied her to buy her book. Gosh! secret lang to ah, this is very illegal. I waited for her, dressed in my pulubi looking clothes (pambahay kasi weh), while she was buying her book. We went inside UST again, on the other gate so we could avoid being seen by , uhm...THE PERSON. We talked along the way trading my dignity for her company. I saw Bowpek (Bupek) along the way and made me whisper, 'itsura ko pala'. :)) i looked kawawa talaga.

Ikee kept apologizing and asked me if I was ok as we made our way to the 'SPOT by the guard and the gate'. She admitted that she was worried and she felt guilty and uneasy during her class thinking how I died out there in the rain. That was sweet but she made me think about the awful experience awhile ago. We talked about Christmas...and she mentioned her birthday that's still on January. She was like fast-forwarding my gifts to her. She didn't even give me a gift on my 17th birthday, now she was asking for hers. I said, 'ako na nga lagi sumasama sayo, ako pa mawawalan ng regalo!'...I used the Jennifer-gift issue to slap it in her face that I wasn't appreciated. And that was emo-tampo time.

She explained her part...and her statement was no excuse and really UNACCEPTABLE. I walked her 1/4 way home and to the usual vanishing point we separate. I covered my face with the invitations and THE PERSON wouldn't notice me, I suppose, because I wasn't wearing my uniform with Holy green shingalingz everywhere. But I still wore Green shorts and my Green Lanyard, with my Green slippers. I love Green, and so you realized. Ikee never knew my favorite color :)) funny...but , oh...OUCH.

*By the way, I wrote this the night it all happened.
*I got the NOSEBLEED before I charged into the rain again.
*two straight days with NOSEBLEEDING drama.
*I did org jobs at night, and I wrote this in my free time before sleeping.

-S.Reyes

Thursday the 12th

Thursday the 12th

November 12,2009, Ikee and I agreed to meet so I could lend her my Gen. Psych notes. The meeting was set on 4:00 pm. Ikee texted me when she already finished her class in the afternoon. I hurriedly woke up from deep slumber when I heard my phone rang. I prepared 10 mins. before she was out. I grabbed my notes and found my way at the back of the Main Building.On the way, Ro-an greeted me and I greeted her back. I asked where Ikee was and she said she wasn't out yet because she's slow (the slowpart is just to exaggerate and not from Ro-an). I couldn't find Ikee...but she found me! Actually, I was surprised. It was the first time she found me before I found her. I gave her my notes ( sobrang dami!) and I told her that I couldn't lend her my book because I might need it pa...as in forever! I'm a Psych Major and I couldn't live without General Psychology. She told me she would buy a book instead. And Maybe, it's different from ours. But as she described their prescribed book, it looked like we have the same kind (white with blue swirls).

When I finished giving her my notes and done with what we agreed upon, i scared her that I'd be going home. I decided to accompany her 1/4 way home and to the 'Lola Nelda' spot, where we often separate our ways. Half way to the one-fourth way home ( very confusing, i know), she stopped and said I should accompany her to the Tan Yankee building so she could inquire about her grades and online account problems. Well, I came with her (great heavens! I was in the mood). She is making 'utos' that I should inquire for her and do what she had too. Tae! she's making me her 'alila'. I told her to go by herself at the information desk but she had second thoughts. When I took a seat, she had no choice but to go by herself. It was only seven steps away from where I sat. She should learn I'm not always there for her...not always her alila. :)) So much for the drama...

I was making 'tampo' because she almost forgot that she had to treat me the 'promised ice cream'. I said again, to scare her, that I'd be going home. She stopped me and said i was 'maarte' and 'gusto ko naman pala'. Actually, gusto ko talaga! Sino ba hindi gusto ng free ice cream!? I grabbed her hand, I she never liked that...uhm, she shrugged off my hand. She is a 'spatial person' and not a huge fan of friendsweetships. In short, she's boring :)) peace Ikee!

I distanced to her then I amde the 'tampo look 'coz I'm maarte' :)). Shizzles, half a second, she was already by my side again...she misses me when I do that. Well, not really...but feeling ko lang. I sat while she was buying our ice cream. She sat with me and handed me the ice cream. Pakipot effect pa nga ako weh, then kinuha ko rin naman bago malusaw. We talked about, uhm, CONFIDENTIALS... interested ka ah!!! woot! Then, she promised to be my proxy on Jennifer's debut. We agreed to meet tomorrow so she could give the invitations and I could entrust her my present for Phen. Bait niya ah! Minsan lang yan :))

I walked her 1/4 way home to show how grateful I was for the free ice cream and a thanks-in-advance for tomorrow. I took her fat braso this time and there were no 'angals'. I released her fat arms when we stopped for awhile to talk to Ro-an (her blockmate). That was the second time I saw Ro-an for that day. She's cute and friendly. She was asking for directions to SM San Lazaro. We directed her with all our might even if both Ikee and I are not really good in 'pasahe' stuffs. Ikee saw Lola Nelda(with her Ruby-Red pajama) was near to her fortress by the guard and the gate. I distanced a little, and a little more...until we were totally in different lanes. I walked away without saying goodbye and pretended to not ever been with her. She did the same and I wasn't sure if she told Lola Nelda about it :D I don't want her to be caught dead because of her demandings. Again, I was just a good friend trying to help her. And I'm still scared of you-know-who (but you don't, or do you?), because I don't want Ikee dead for coming home late than the usual. I wasn't sure that Ikee would ask more of me than the notes that day. I was unprepared and I wasn't prepared for the 'blame' on that day.

Luckily, I didn't get the blame and the fault that I was expecting. It really ended out great...well except for the ending I suppose. It wasn't really a good ending. We ended it by pretending to not-have-been together or to not-have-known each other for years. :D

*I got the worse of tomorrow's plan
*I got the nosebleed before I went to Main.

-S.Reyes

The Title of this is in the end.

IF--
I were the wind,
I'd be the oxygen that you would breathe.
I'd let you feel unseen love.
I'd be the fuel for your fire.
I'd be the breeze that would calm the storm.
The airstream of your emotion.
The gust for those who harm you.
The squall that would protect you.


IF--
I were the water,
I'd be the quench of your thirst.
The reason behind those stream in your eyes.
The river that flows in your heart.
The rain that would make you bloom.
The tide that would be your personal armor.
The current that would unruffled your soul.


IF--
I were the earth,
and you were my Sun...
I'd revolved around you.
I'd be the ground that you could always step on,
The mud of your origin.
The dirt of your lies.

IF--
I were the fire,
I'd give you burning affection.
I'd offer you the flurry of my feelings.
The flames of wrath and despair.
The inferno for your foes.
The blaze of your spirit,
The ignition of your senses.

If I could really be the cosmos of this
powerful forces,
Let me be the Fire of your passion;
The Earth, your world;
The Water of your sensation;
The Wind as the gale of your awareness.

I couldn't really be in this illusional role-play.
Just give me this chance to be the termination,
of this wonderful prose.
If it wasn't for you dear, love--
I could never write down this words.
Give me a chance to let you feel,
What I really feel inside.

I know, you could never see me.
And I couldn't really see you in return.
Let's hold on to our promises and to this natural forces.
This is what we have left.
A love unseen,
An invisible feeling.

--The amity of the blind.

* each element corresponds to each one of us in our circle of friends.
Try to think which one is for WHO.

I miss you, Sam Reyes

There was once a time when i used to smile,
There was once a time when i ran a mile,
There was once a time when i had no worry,
There was once a time when i didn`t knew how to say sorry.

Now that time has gone,
Maybe for my best.
Now that time has gone,
Maybe to really bring out my best.

But i still can see,
See the childishness in me,
See the naughtiness in me,
See the innocence in me,
See the carelessness in me,
See alot which is caught inside me,
But the thing I can`t see the most is ME.

I miss being me,
I really do miss my self.

I miss the soul inside me,
which was once the reason of my existence.
I miss the esteem inside me,
Which i used to have by just calling my self great.

Now i think i am in the state of solitude,
A solitude created by my actions;
A solitude created by the reactions of those actions,
And i don`t know how to get out of all this.

Now i want to look back once,
To see what i used to be back then;
To see what i used to dream back then,
I tried but all i see is the loneliness i have dragged my self into.

I want to be free now,
Free from all the worry,
Free from saying again and again 'sorry',
Free to feel the feeling to be my self again.

After thinking about all this,
i just realized that this is nothing except the feeling of losing someone,
Feeling of losing myself.

I miss being me,
I really do miss my self badly.


-S.Reyes

Dare to Change Me

You might have changed, but not me;
I’ll always stay the same, what ever you may be.
If we break apart because I won’t follow,
Then that’s just a depression I’ll have to swallow
Because you can’t change me.

If you decide to tread down a different path,
I’ll keep strolling down easy street with a laugh.
It’s not that I don’t like you, friend,
But there are some things that can never mend
And you can’t change me.

In the end I probably won’t recognize you,
But I’ll be the same no matter what they do.
We’ll pass each other on a street, winter cold
And while you’re the new you, I’ll still be the same old
Since you can’t change me.

-S.Reyes

I fell in love with a Magician

Our love is like Magic.
Always based on the situation,
and never on emotion.
I never knew that I'd fall for the greatest magician.
Who could pluck a rose for you, in a blink of an eye.
Who could be by your side, no matter how far.
Who could make everybody else happy, aside from you.
He is perfect.
Perfect in his ways.
But why did every thing change suddenly?
Where is the love we had seriously?
Would you be magic too, vanishing in front of me?
You just left me alone.
In this theatre, with everybody unknown.
I never heard from you since then...
Just when I read in the tabloid that you already married another.
You proved that you're never real.
Just the person I knew from my imagination.
Love can sometimes be magic.
But magic can sometimes be just an illusion.

-S.Reyes

Bangag

"I NEED SLEEP! S.O.S"

-Yan na siguro sinisigaw ng utak at katawan ko. Ilang araw na rin akong irregular ang tulog at sobrang pagod. I need to study for my exams kasi. Oh well, at least tapos na siya and I'm finally coming home to Bulacan. Medyo matagal nga lang bago ako makauwi. Sunduin pa kasi ako ng kuya ko around 5:00-5:30 pm. Tagal naman. Ayan tuloy, napasulat ako ng prose at isang blog. Sobrang boring. Hindi naman na ko makatulog. Ngayon palang ata nag-eeffect yung mga coffee at pampagising kong ininom. Lahat ng pampagising sinubukan ko na maka-ahon lang sa lintik na finals na yan. :))

Actually, para akong Zombie na pumapasok para mag-exam. Bangag na bangag at lutang na lutang. Grabeh talaga, ITSURA KO! woot! nakakainis lang. Matagal na rin akong hindi umuuwi ng bulacan. Na-miss ko ng mag-bike at matulog ng buong araw. Manuod ng Series sa hapon at matulog ulit. Buti nalang at kadamay ko si Eve Roxanne sa mga nararanasan ko ngayon.

Ilang bonamine na rin ang nainom ko dahil sa sobrang hilo. Puro iced coffee nalang nasa katawan ko ngayon. Naligo nako ng dalawang beses magising lang. Juice ko! tapos, pag matutulog na...hindi naman ako makatulog sapagkat puro Neuroanatomy o kaya naman Zoology laman ng Utak ko.

Ilang araw na rin ako nananaginigp tungkol sa sinumpaang 'hippocampus' na yan! :)) tagal parin ng sundo ko. Gusto ko ng umuwi. Total bummer nako dito. Walang magawa. Masyadong pagod naman para gumala. 1 hour pa akong maghihintay. Gusto ko ng mag-upload ng mga blogs ko. Sabog-sabog na mga mata ko. Hindi nako mangiti...pilit na pilit nalang. Di na rin ako masyadong nagsasalita.

Kahapon (thursday,Oct.22, 2009), nakita ako ni Ikee sa ground floor ng Main Building sa UST. Sabi niya, " Oi sam". Tapos sabi ko,"oi". Tapos bigla akong umalis na parang hidni ko siya kilala. Natauhan lang ako na si Ikee pala yun nung nagkita na kami ni Rox. :)) Ang Loser ko. Sinungitan ko pa! Then after namin pumunta ni Rox sa Chapel, muntik nakong masagasaan. Akala ko tao, sasakyan na pala! :)) muntik pako mamatay dahil sa puyat oh!

Lagi nalang ako tulala. Tapos ang dami kong nakakalimutan. Naiwanan ko ba naman ako cellphone ko sa condo tapos akala ko nawala ko sa UST. :)) para talaga akong sira!!!

Sana maging normal na ulit ang buhay ko. O kaya naman sana hindi ako maging irregular sa pasukan. Tae lang. Masaya na sana ang buhay kasi, nakakasagot naman ako sa exams. Sulit ang puyat! Medyo sumabit nga lang sa last exam namin, :c aww. Pero sana magkaron ng himala na pumasa kami ni Roxanne!!! grabeh. Nagpuyat ako para sa Math tapos parang nawala lahat ng pinag-aralan ko.

-S.Reyes

A little more Everyday

I only miss you, A little you could say:
A little too much,
A little too often, and
A little more Everyday.

When they told me you were gone,
It was all I could do to keep trying to hold on.
Without you there to catch me, it was too hard.
I let go and fall, and it'd tore me apart.

These arms that once embraced yours,
Are now covered in bruises and sores.
Without you here to protect me,
I am nothing anymore.

These hands you used to hold,
Have been getting very cold.
Without you here to protect me,
I’m all alone.

-S.Reyes

Sam says,

continuous population.
Dark circles are appearing and my eyes are HELL.
I feel sleepy and unfocused everytime.
I never notice anyone so special;
All I see is me.
Darn! this friggin' studies.
It's eating me, changing me...
And killing myself tenderly.

*I wrote this because I don't have the enthusiasm to study for my 4 quizzes the next day (friday, October 9, 2009).

*HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE GIANNE! :)

-S.Reyes

Disguise

You say that you need me too.

But here's something you don't realize - All of this can change.

All of it, in the blink of an eye.

May the change be for the good, or bad...

I could end up a wreck for a while

Knowing I wouldn't ever be exactly the same again.

Or I could stay in your arms, never wanting you to let go.

I only want to stay with you, if you want me to.

You don't realize that things change...

May you want it to.

Or not...

If you fall for another, please go.

Just make sure you don't look back.

i don't want you to see me in this horrible new mask.


-S.Reyes

Like I'm ready to be anybody

I have always wanted to do this, Ever since I was in high school. But until now, I have never been able to. Thanks to the events of a few nights ago, though, now I can. It is very useful to be able to do. No more worries. No more problems. They are all solved easily now. But, at this point, you have no idea what I’m talking about. So, we will begin from before this—change— happened.

I won't be myself if that's not who you love.
I'll cast away these feelings, I will rise above.
Shape me, friend, into what you asked for.
Ignore the bleeding from the wounds you bore.
Change me, here, amend me as you please.
Lift me to my feet, up from my knees.
Make me happy, non complaint.
Make me a demon, or a siant.
It's your choice now, I don't care what you do.
I just want to be good enough for you.

I'll pretend I've been feeling okay.
If that's exactly what you want me to say.
I'll live a lie, all for you.
maybe someday it'll come true.
I ask no more then for you to recreate.
There's no longer lives at stake.
I no longer wish for a friendly death.
If that's what you want, I'll draw another breath.
I'll live for you, if that is what you ask.
I'll lie for you, hide beind the mask.
If this is what you want to see.
I will no longer be me.

-S.Reyes