Star (Falling Star)

Star

I watched you shimmer, streak, and die before my eyes.

Looking at you up above,

while my feet on the ground.

My eyes on yours,

while I'm nowhere to be found.

I've never made a wish I've expected to come true

But maybe this time I would,

because I'm wishing for you.

Falling Star

When I look above,

my eyes fixed on you.

I wait for you to came,

to make my dreams come true.

You said you'll shine,

shimmer only in front of my eyes;

But you dim together with all your lies.

my life got fixated;

As my hopes flickered,died,disappeared and collapsed with you.

My wishes still followed you very far...

Like a lost F

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-S.Reyes

*these poems were written in two different times. I put these two together to show everyone that 1 word could change everything. As you see, in the first poem (Star), everything seems to be positive. Then, in the second poem...I added only a word in the title (falling) and it turned to the opposite mood of the first poem.

A word could change EVERYTHING.

Pencil Case

I lost my Nike pencil case yesterday (November 18, 2010). I wasn't sure where I lost it and I was too depressed to think what to do next. I was occupied and busy about classes and school works the whole day; So I failed to notice something valuable was missing.I've been using that pencil case since like, Highschool. My pencil case and I shared countless experiences and memories even time or money can't buy. You might think that it's just a typical pencil case, but it's NOT. It was given by my Mom and it's worth 700 pesos in all Nike outlets nationwide (orginal, indeed). Of course, it's not really practical to buy such an expensive pencil case. Mom told me that the best only deserves the best too. I was grateful for being given the best gift from the best person in my life.

I decided to look for it the next day, hoping I would be lucky enough to find it again. I went to school early to check on my classrooms yesterday.

I FOUND IT!

I guess I would be spending my succeeding student years with my Nike pencil case buddy. By this simple event that really affected me, I learned some interesting FACTS ABOUT LIFE:

1. You'll never look for something until it's missing.

2. You wouldn't be much affected if you don't really care about something.

3. We often realize the significance of something when it's already a memory.

4. We often overlook the people or things that we thought would be always THERE.

5. Sometimes,small things have the biggest worth.

These FACTS make us all feel stupid about ourselves. But one good thing about these facts:

"They remind us to HOLD ON to people/things that have both great and minimal importance in our life."

-Sam Reyes

Candor

Do you know how it feels when you've been lied to? Do you know it hurts to know the truth from someone you don't really trust? These are some questions that makes life seriously bitter.

I really hurts to know when a person you really trust, doesn't trust you at all. But you know, you can't blame them. They are fragile beings like you, too. Yes, it's easier to lie than be lied to. The pangs of hatred devours your soul when you discovered that you just know that the truth was hidden from you.

I don't easily trust someone. Sometimes, it's harder for me to even trust myself. I'm afraid to be hurt, and many times I deny it. I don't know, but "trust" has been a really big issue when it comes to me. It really bothers me hearing people backstabbed the other, or someone has been fooled with faux honesty. The irony is, I do it too.

It's more difficult to trust the second time around. When a friend lied to you, and you decided to give another chance to save the friendship... that person must be very special, indeed. What really hurts is, when you know that what you've been told was a lie...and you still want to believe it because you trust the person who told it. Sometimes, people are this STUPID. I guess, I've been THIS stupid too. Oh great shit.

My blockmate once told me that "Happiness is finding someone to trust with." That got me thinking, and got me asking: Have I found that someone?

I may have found that person, and eventually lost that person...and I'm left here waiting for that person to be found again. :||||| It gets more confusing when you look deeper into what you really feel.

Well, you just have to bear life's dramas. You just have to decide; right decisions always save your life...but the wrong ones help you LEARN.

Can I trust you with this?

-S.Reyes

Minotaur in the Labyrinth

I live in the dungeons;

Trap in the labyrinth of nightmares.

I am feared, everybody see me as terror.

Once, someone learned to love me.

We were too different, but she never looked at our differences.

She was courageous enough to try the maze.

The path to my heart,

so dangerous...

But she dared to take the risk.

We were happy...

Until I was devoured by anger.

I lost my control,

lost my conscience...

lost my self...

then lost my love.

She left, horrified--

For she had seen the monster in me.

The distorted soul hiding behind this malfromed face.

She died, she died.

Dead, lifeless and gone.

I never knew what to do since then.

Again, trapped in this labyrinth of despair.

When she entered my life,

she never came out...

Deep in my heart,

locked there forever.

Prisoner of hatred,

captive of a helpless emotion.

-S.Reyes

Rm. MO5, In 2009

The door is open:

Alone in this room,

embraced by silence.

Alone in this room,

I miss your presence.

Please, close the door.

I'm sick---

left with no defense.

I'm weak---

I remained to be weak.

Please, close the door.

I opened and closed my eyes,

you're gone, far away...

The cruel truth---

not even my dreams could survive.

Please, close the door.

I lost my hope,

together with my dreams.

I stopped dreaming...

This is worth for you to know.

Please, close the door.

You were here with me,

but tomorrow you'll be gone.

We believed we wouldn't last forever,

but we lasted very long.

Please, close the door.

Closed heart, closed mind.

Fixed in time, frozen in this soltitude.

Please, close the door.

Closed doors are not the end.

The end of love,

a phase to mend.

I stood, and closed the door.

-S.Reyes

*Originally entitled Rm. 1726 but I changed my mind. This is dedicated to my bestfriend and my room mates. :)

Winters with Persephone

Adonis fell in love with Persephone.

Every season was Summer...

No cold, arctic Winter.

The bliss of love animated the essence of their lives.

Every smile was a memory,

every scar reimbursed with amity.

Adonis died,

But Persephone remained his life after death.

He was revived by Aphrodite,

The goddess of love.

Aphrodite gave Adonis another chance to live.

But this promised life should be spent with Aphrodite.

Adonis chose to live again,

just to see Persephone from afar;

In a distance he could never reach;

Bounded by limits, end of their love.

Persephone and Adonis is against every Winter.

Winter season, but blazing Summer in their hearts.

Adonis' broken heart is still beating.

Beating for the one who secretly holds his heart.

He is open for a change---

Even if it calls for a change of heart.

-S.Reyes

Autumn Haiku

Autumn is my fall;

From above the trees I stood.

I lost my balance.

-S.Reyes

Battlefield of Emotions

The fort of my heart was bombed with melancholic disaster.

The depression of my soul shot a bullet that poisoned my mind.

Happiness I gained from the victory of my love,

ignited my spirits and set my life on fire.

As the blaze of my emotions consumed my conscience,

I lost my mind...my rationality was burnt.

My heart and mind fought for a feeling;

Happiness...misery...happiness...

---left me nothing to feel.

I was in between the battle of opposite emotions.

I decided not to choose what to feel...

for I believed, I had lost my mind.

Lost my mind, in a battlefield.

-S.Reyes

Driving my way to the Future

There are different roads:

Some are short,

Some are dangerous,

Some are long, and

Some are rough...

you only have to choose.

On the road, you encounter different

cars,

different people,

different attitudes;

Sometimes you have to take a turn,

or give way for others.

You may take a stop;

take a turn,

or even overtake.

There's a right time for every action.

When you encounter dead ends and road

blocks,

it doesn't mean you have to stop

driving.

It's a sign for you to go, and drive back.

When you drive too fast and about to

lose control,

use the brakes.

Everyone needs to take a pause when

everything seems so fast.

Keep safe. :)

-S.Reyes

Driving 101

My thoughts flow like hell whenever the time is in the boundary of night and day. It's easier to write in this particular time since I really really feel alert and rational. My laptop's always sleeps beside me on my bed. This is the best way for me to record my thoughts; for I believe, Obra Maetras are made in the realms of dreams and reality when you're about to sleep.

I tried to reflect on what happened today. Sembreak's killing me; everyting seems routinary and it bores me. Today seems to be different since my routine was broken. I finally started my driving lessons today. Yeah, after days of wait. I wasn't able to sleep enough the day before my driving lessons but I still attended my driving class.

Mang Carlos, my personal driver since I was Kinder, escorted me to the driving lessons. Daddy didn't allow me to come all by myself there. It's ironic, though, that I'd be learning how to drive and Mang Carlos' work would eventually decrease. Everything seems to be like this: Whenever I take a step forward, someone will take a step backwards.

My driving instructor was kind. I really learned all the basic things I need to know before I go FAST AND FURIOUS. My instructor said that I'm a fast learner, but I'm "makulit." =)) He showed me his manual and he said I have to read it all. He thought I would be shocked of its thickness and complexity. But oh NO, that driving manual was just a fraction of what I read in school. =))

Before I started really driving the car, he taught me the parts of the car. It was quite boring until we finally went to the engine configuration. Well, I easily learn mechanical stuffs at home and a car's build-up wouldn't be an exception. I really wanted to learn the detailed engine configuration of the car but my instructor said, "hija, driving lessons tayo...pang-mekaniko na yang tinatanong mo."

Like what I've said, I learned the basic driving skills and safety preacautions. I did some turns, stops, reverses, and manual steering techniques. I sensed Mang Carlos' anxiety, for he could see now that I was really learning how to drive. I finished all the lessons I needed to know for the day and I requested to proceed to the lessons for the next day. My instructor said that I shouldn't hurry the lessons even though I learned it all at once. I really have to be patient to truly learn. Indeed, when you hurry things too much...you learn less.

This would be the greatest lesson for today:

Accuracy doesn't measure real learning; it is how you manifest what you learned.

-S.Reyes

Victory Requiem

In war, I find peace.

The collapse of my enemies, released my country...freed my soul.

In victory, I lived in exaltation;

But guilt distorted my conscience,

for I was happy for the executed.

*unfinished poem, I hope you guys help me finish it. Add some suggestions or write a continuation for this poem. Don't worry, I'll include your name and I hope this will turn out to be a good collaboration. :) Comment here or just e-mail me: rei_reies17@yahoo.com

Success(ful) Dinner

One dinner time back in 3rd year high school...

(the night of 4th quarter release of cards)

Dad: Anak, do you want to be successful?

Sam: sorta,

Dad: You really have to study well.

Sam: ugh, not really. I don't want to be successful just happy *big grin*

Dad: Look at mommy, she's happy because she's a succcessful woman.

Sam: Yeah, I admire her...not her success though, but the way she maintains it. Ano kasi, parang...it's easy to achieve success kasi. Everyone could do that. And I don't want to be like everyone else.

Dad: ...

Sam: I mean, success doesn't define who you are. It's like an accessory, so no big deal. Ang corny naman kasi nung mga nagsasabi kong classmates na "i want to be successful..blah...blah...blah..." utot nila. Everyone naman kasi nagiging successful sa isang point ng buhay nila. Pero most of them, after that success...downfall naman. Yung typical na when-they-get-it-they-lose-it.

Dad: mag-aral ka anak ng mabuti. Para pag na-achieve mo na ang success sa right time sa buhay mo, hindi sayo mawala agad katulad ng sabi mo.

Sam: dadeh kasi, ang lalim ng tinatanong di naman ako Philosopher. May success pang nalalaman at right time chorva po...eh sa totoo lang, ikaw ang success ko! *hug*

*syempre, meron yang 'nom...nom...nom...intervals' =)) kaya ako nakapag-isip ng matino.

-S.Reyes

Halloween 2010

Everything and everyone seems to change abruptly now. The transition is too fast that I could've ever notice the transformation. Time is really a good changer. It makes people never notice how everything changes when they feel they're still the same. How I'd wish to go back, put the conversions in slow-mo or maybe at STOP.

Mom and I used to go early at the cemetery every November 1. It was a tradition for us to pray the rosary together, wait for daddy and the rest of the family to arrive in the afternoon. Even though we wait too long for the others to come, we wouldn't get bored because we had each other. Mom and I used to talk the whole day, eat together, and give mean comments on passers-by. It's sad to lose a tradition you have for years; but it's harder to try to accept the sudden change.

I always asked Mom why do we have to go early and stay at the cemetery all day long. She said that she loved her mother and father so much; and giving a day for them wasn't enough compared to the years of happiness they gave to her.

I'm really SAD. I keep remembering that I used to sit next to Mom every Halloween; Now, all I could feel is her engraved name next to me. Of course, I know Mommy wouldn't be happy seeing me like this. But Mom, I couldn't help it for i love you too; and giving you this day would never be enough for the 15 years of genuine happiness you gave me.

:')

-S.Reyes